First Time (Star Trek: TOS zine)/Issues 21-30

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Issue 21

back cover issue #21, 1st edition by Kay Wells

front cover issue #21, 1st edition by Kay Wells

First Time 21 was published in March 1989 and contains 185 pages.

The interior art is by Deeb, Dragon, Judy, Carol Pierce, SBL, Kay Wells, and Shellie Whild.

• Sleeping Beauty, fiction by Natasha Barry ("A meld while Kirk is in a coma reveals his affair with Mitchell to Spock.") (4)

• The Kindling, poem by Michelle Perry (17)
• Save the Last Dance, fiction by Kay Wells ("Misunderstanding at an all-male club.") (19)
• Stranger Games, fiction by Jane Elza ("Lt. Kirk enters a chess tournament and is attracted to the present champion, Spock.") (38)
• The Thawing, poem by Michelle Perry (39a)
• 'Neath the Glimmering Stars, poem by Janis E. Laine (39b)
• Angel Unaware, fiction by Pat Charles ("A temporarily assigned crewman desires Spock, kindling feelings of jealousy in Kirk.") (54)
• Love Fantasy, poem by Michele Perry (59)
• Omen, poem by Janis E. Laine (60)
• Ambition, poem by Dovya Blacque (61)
• Keep the Dream, fiction by Tere Ann Roderick ("Kirk Goes AWOL from a conference after Spock and the Enterprise are reported missing.") (62)
• Puzzle Pieces, poem by Cybel Harper (113)
• Swan, fiction by Charlotte Frost (novella) ("Just as Spock and Kirk begin a relationship, Spockʼs cousin commits suicide.") (114)
• The Chev'el and the Rose, poem by Jane Fury (inside back cover)

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  from issue #21, Judy for "Sleeping Beauty"

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  from issue #21, SBL for "Save the Last Dance"

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  from issue #21, Deeb for "Stranger Games"

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  from issue #21, Dragon for "Rainy Day"

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  from issue #21, Shellie Whild for "Keep the Dream"

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  from issue #21, Shellie Whild for "Keep the Dream"

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  from issue #21, Dragon for "Swan"

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  from issue #21, sample text, "Swan"

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  art by Kay Wells for "Sleeping Beauty" Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 21

See reactions and reviews for Swan.

See reactions and reviews for Angel Unaware.

See reactions and reviews for Sleeping Beauty.

See reactions and reviews for Keep the Dream.

See reactions and reviews for Rainy Day.

See reactions and reviews for Stranger Games.

See reactions and reviews for Save the Last Dance.

Issue 22

front cover issue #22, 1st edition by Lori Lee -- "The front cover features three impressions of Kirk: from Where No Man Has Gone Before—a beautifully captured cocky grin; from the episodes in general—he’s more serious now, you can see the weight of the decisions he’s had to make in his eyes; and from the movies—there’s definitely a gleam in that gaze, and I also see a measure of peace as well as determination. It’s hard to pick which rendition I like the best, they are all excellent. Also very effective are the three backpieces chosen to complement the portraits: a chess piece, a stone lintel from Amok Time, and a picture of the Enterprise going down in flames from STIII: TSFS."

back cover issue #22, 1st edition by Lori Lee -- "The back cover features three impressions of Spock: from Where No Man, the episodes and the movies. The oldest and youngest Spocks are the best of the three, the series Spock seems too lined and dark. And the composition of this pictures can’t quite match the front cover, as the three accompanying objects (two chess pieces, the Guardian, the torpedo tube from STII) seem to clutter rather than complement."

First Time 22 was published in July 1989 and contains 185 pages.

The interior art is by Deeb, Dragon, LAM, SBL, Chris Soto, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild.

interior page from issue #22, SBL for "Sandpaper and Salve" -- note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized. -- "This is a simple line drawing of two men making love, presented from a rather, uh, unique perspective. All you see are the spread legs and the equipment ready to be, uh, inserted. Oh, heck, this isn’t a family letterzine, the fellow on the top is basically ready to lower himself on the penis of the lucky one on the bottom. No facial features anywhere to be identified, this one could be used for just about any fandom. It was a shock to turn the page and see it. And yet.... Got to admit I like it! I feel as if it must be Spock on top. The cant of the shoulders reveals my lithe Vulcan, not to mention those luscious long fingers which have come around to hold Kirk’s penis to steady it before penetration. Yes! I would be interested in hearing other folks’ opinions about extremely explicit drawings in K/S zines. Do you like them or not? This one certainly qualifies."

From the editorial:

It's the fourth of July and I've decided to do this zine for Shore Leave just next week. Why, you ask?… Because I have a story from Star Trek V and I want to get it out before the market is flooded. The story is Ellen Thacher's 'what's missing in this movie.' Other than these few missing scene's [sic] she feels the movie was more than presentable and knows that you all will be writing furiously.

• Think of the Future Tomorrow, fiction by Natasha Barry ("At a diplomatic conference, Kirk meets his Klingon roommate from the Academy.") (4)
• Force Majeure, poem by Michelle Perry (19)
• An Evening in a Forest, poem by Rachel Cavendish (20)
• The Missing, poem by Dovya Blacque (21)
• Purgatory, fiction by Jane Elza ("Spock transports to an A/U where he and Kirk are not friends.") (22)
• Slow Poison, poem by Rachel Cavendish (27)
• Siren Song, fiction by Kay Wells ("When a Vulcan hybrid infant is brought on board, Spockʼs shields are weakened when he must aid the child.") (28)
• Perspective, fiction by Pat Charles ("An ambassadorʼs homophobic remarks cause Kirk and Spock to advance their plans to be together.") (52)
• Sandpaper & Salve, fiction by Elizabeth Scott ("When several crewmembers die, Spockʼs attempts to comfort Kirk escalate into passion.") (80)
• Tail Chasing, fiction by Emily Adams, Marian Flanders ("While sharing a room, Kirk asks Spock to think about how a relationship would be between them.") (96)
• Surprise, poem by Emily Adams (111)
• Making a List, fiction by A.T. Bush ("Spock compiles a list of marital candidates as his next pon farr approaches.") (112)
• Making Music, poem by Cybel Harper (136)
• The Nature of Stars, poem by Dovya Blacque (137)
• Night of Honor, fiction by Sarah B. Leonard ("Spock trades himself for Kirk and McCoy as Talʼs prisoner and is tortured for his part in the death of the female commander.") (138)
• The Pain, fiction by Ellen Thacher ("While on a camping trip after Sybokʼs death, Kirk opens up to Spock about his pain following Spockʼs “death.”") (176)
• Twilight & Dusk, poem by Rachel Cavendish (183)
• Color of Love, poem by Roberta Haga (interpretation of the two covers of this zine) (184)

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  from issue #22, sample page

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  from issue #22, Kay Wells for "Think of the Future Tomorrow" -- "This picture of a nude Kirk standing in the shower looks like a rather early DEW effort that I like quite a bit. Perhaps the back is elongated a bit too much, but the shoulders and arms seem about right, and I do like the face! Although, since Kirk is turned with his back to the viewer, that’s not what you look at first…."

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  from issue #22, Dragon for "Perspective" -- "It took me years to really appreciate Dragon’s work. This one is a gem, as Kirk and Spock appear in what looks like bathrobes. They are sort of embracing from the chest up, with Kirk’s hand up and caressing Spock’s chin. I like the hair on Spock’s chest! (Thank goodness for Patterns of Force, K/S wouldn’t be the same without that episode!) What I really adore, though, is the expression of Kirk’s youthful, very beautiful face: quiet passion, loving devotion. I would feel that way in his position, too!"

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  from issue #22, Deeb for "Tail Chasing"

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  from issue #22, Chris Soto for "Night of Honor"

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  from issue #22, Shellie Whild for the poem "Twilight & Dusk"

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  from issue #22, LAM for the poem "Force Majeure"

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  from issue #22, Chris Soto for the poem, "Surprise"

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 22

See reactions and reviews for Siren Song.

See reactions and reviews for Purgatory.

See reactions and reviews for Perspective.

See reactions and reviews for Tail Chasing.

See reactions and reviews for Think of the Future Tomorrow.

See reactions and reviews for Night of Honor.

See reactions and reviews for Making a List.

See reactions and reviews for The Pain.

See reactions and reviews for Sandpaper & Salve.

[zine]: I recently took considerable pleasure in re- reading this zine from Merry Men Press; I hadn’t read it in years and didn’t remember very clearly what was in the zine. To my delight I came across several stories that I had always wanted to find again, in particular Night of Honor by Sara B. Leonard and Perspective by Pat Charles. The zine was published in July 1989 and can still be ordered from Robin Hood of Merry Men Press. The stories and art are presented in order. I review all of the stories and a few of the pieces of art. [see her comments on the art above, and see individual pages for her fiction comments]

[art, page 95, by SBL]: This is a simple line drawing of two men making

love, presented from a rather, uh, unique perspective. All you see are the spread legs and the equipment ready to be, uh, inserted. Oh, heck, this isn’t a family letterzine, the fellow on the top is basically ready to lower himself on the penis of the lucky one on the bottom. No facial features anywhere to be identified, this one could be used for just about any fandom. It was a shock to turn the page and see it.

And yet.... Got to admit I like it! I feel as if it must be Spock on top. The cant of the shoulders reveals my lithe Vulcan, not to mention those luscious long fingers which have come around to hold Kirk’s penis to steady it before penetration. Yes!

I would be interested in hearing other folks’ opinions about extremely explicit drawings in K/S zines. Do you like them or not? This one certainly qualifies.

Issue 23

back cover issue #23, 1st edition by DEW

front cover issue #23, 1st edition by DEW -- "Those eyes caught my attention, mysterious and inquisitive, introspective and outgoing—true windows of their souls."

First Time 23 was published in 1989 and contains 182 pages.

The interior art is by Deeb, Dragon, Susan K. Dundas, SBL, Kay Wells, and Shellie Whild.

• First Star, fiction by Lurae Brisley ("Kirk is injured when taken as a hostage shortly after VʼGer, so McCoy sends him and Spock on shoreleave for him to recuperate.") (4)
• Loneliness, poem by Cybel Harper (19)
• Easedropper (yes, spelled that way in the zine, could be a typo), fiction by Gena Moretti ("After Kirk and Spock are in a prolonged meld, Spock finds he is able to alter Kirkʼs behavior and read his thoughts.") (20)
• The Offer, fiction by Judith Coventry ("Kirk is raped during the “Festival” of the red hour and begins to unconsciously blame Spock for not being there for him and for the love and desire he has been hiding from himself and Spock.") (30)
• A View from the Tower, fiction by Emily Adams ("Kirk and Spock take the final step to love after climbing to the top of a tower together.") (40)
• Separation, poem by Jean Schnedler (57)
• The Merry-Go-Round, fiction by Telana Wells ("Kirk, Spock and McCoy go to a carnival when on shoreleave and Kirk and Spock find themselves growing ever closer,unaware that the crew think they are lovers. "In the space of a heartbeat, Spock's anxiety peaked. "Jim?" He stepped closer, reaching a hand toward his fallen captain.") (58)
• Shackle, poem by Rachel Cavendish (95)
• Addiction, fiction by Gena Moretti ("After Kirk initiates Spock into the pleasures of a footrub, Spock wants him to show him other “areas of pleasurable sensation”.") (96)
• You Are, poem by Cybel Harper (102)
• Passion Play, poem by Rachel Cavendish (103)
• Shadow Dancing, fiction by Jane Elza ("Two [[bonded Vulcan ambassadors come aboard the Enterprise and while there ask Spock to set up a time for them to perform a prereform dance.") (104)
• Trust, poem by Cybel Harper (111)
• Raemose, fiction by Anna Parrish ("Kirk must try to hide his true feelings from Spock he discovers while injured, and he is held by Spock until help arrives.") (112)
• Freedom, poem by Rachel Cavendish (125)
• Blind Fool, fiction by Kay Wells ("When McCoy sends a new officer on the Enterprise-A to talk to Kirk about the price of command, Kirk realizes the price he himself has payed.") (126)
• Once More... In Standard, fiction by Addison Reed ("Kirk tries to give Spock lessons in seduction when they are given the orders to go after the Romulan cloaking device but realizes his true feelings and is afraid of what Spockʼs reaction will be.") (146)
• The Light, poem by Rachel Cavendish (177)
• Where We Have Been, poem by Janis E. Laine (178)
• One Who Waits, poem by Srhah Comers (180)
• Hibernation's End, poem by Rachel Cavendish (180)

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  from issue #23, sample page, text

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  from issue #23, SBL for "Eavesdropper"

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  from issue #23, Deeb for "Raemose"

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  from issue #23, Kay Wells for "Blind Fool"

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  from issue #23, Susan K. Dundas

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  from issue #23, artist for "Hibernation's End" is unclear

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  from issue #23, Dragon for "First Star"

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  from issue #23, SBL for "The Merry-Go-Round"

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 23

See reactions and reviews for Blind Fool.

See reactions and reviews for Once More... In Standard.

See reactions and reviews for First Star.

See reactions and reviews for Raemose.

See reactions and reviews for Shadow Dancing.

See reactions and reviews for Addiction.

See reactions and reviews for The Merry-Go-Round.

See reactions and reviews for A View from the Tower.

See reactions and reviews for The Offer.

See reactions and reviews for Easedropper.

[Easedropper]: This was a very nice little story of Spock accidentally becoming able to read Kirk's thoughts. Although very predictable, the story was handled nicely and both men were very much in-character. But why was the title EASEdropper? Am I missing something?

Issue 24

back cover issue #24, 1st edition by Lori Lee

front cover of issue #24, 1st edition by Lori Lee

First Time 24 was published in 1990 and contains 165 pages.

The covers are by Lori Lee. Interior art by Susan K. Dundas, Caro Hedge, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild.

From the editorial:

Again, welcome to FIRST TIME 24. If it weren't for you, the avid (read - sweaty palmed perverts) there wouldn't be any more of these zines. There are times when it gets rough (like you heard 4 people are furiously making copies and passing them around). Not that I really mind people who can't afford it reading a friends zine, it's the copies that hurt business so much. Ah. well such is life. At least I know that people like the zine. Okay, sit down, it's that time again. The dreaded LOC time. You're not writing enough of them. At least every contributor in this zine should write an LOC and you know it! Shame on you!

• Promise of the Winds, fiction by Elizabeth Scott ("Spock see a Vulcan Scientist thru pon farr while he and Kirk are stranded by a dust storm.") (4)
• Facade, poem by Rachel Cavendish (19)
• Courtship, fiction by Gena Moretti ("Spock decides to “court” Kirk as a bondmate. "Spock of Vulcan sat at his personal computer in his quarters, fingers steepled before him. The incident of T'Pring, and his aborted pon farr, was six months behind him.") (20)
• Play Me, poem by Cybel Harper (32)
• The Promise, poem by Cybel Harper (33)
• Roller Coaster, fiction by Telana Wells ("After being trapped for two years in an A/U, Kirk and Spock return to an Enterprise where only eight days have passed.") (34)
• Lonely Corridors, poem by Michelle Perry (66)
• Star Fire, poem by Cybel Harper (67)
• Unfinished Business, fiction by Ciana Sepulveda-Mitchell ("Post ST5: In the Observation Room.") (68)
• Risk Worth Taking, fiction by Kay Wells ("While drinking, Kirk accepts McCoyʼs and Scottyʼs bet that he can seduce Spock.") (70)
• Sing Song, poem by Kelly Graves (89)
• The Candidate, fiction by Marion Flanders ("Spock returns home with Kirk and McCoy to find a new bondmate.") (90)
• Candles in the Night, poem by Rachel Cavendish (103)
• The Hidden Room, fiction by Anna Parrish ("On the Shore Leave Planet, Kirk is with Spock thinking that heʼs an android.") (104)
• Battle Grounds, poem by Rachel Cavendish (111)
• Nightmare in Parallax, fiction by Susan K. Dundas ("After 20 years a bond forms between Kirk and Spock and during a mission they are tortured by the Vians.") (112)
• untitled poem by Kelly Graves (151)
• After Paradise, poem by Rachel Cavendish (151a)
• Loaded Dice, fiction by Susan K. Dundas, Caro Hedge, Kay Wells, Shellie Whild Emily Adams ("Kirk makes sure Spock knows which answers are his on a questionnaire about sexual habits.") (152)
• Music of the Stars, poem by Pam Smith (164)

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  from issue #24, poem by Rachel Cavendish, illo by Shellie Whild

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  from issue #24, Kay Wells for "Promise of the Winds"

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  from issue #24, Susan K. Dundas for "Nightmare in Parallax"

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  from issue #24, Susan K. Dundas for "Nightmare in Parallax"

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  from issue #24, sample text page

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  from issue #24, Kay Wells for "Risk Worth Taking"

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 24

See reactions and reviews for Promise of the Winds.

See reactions and reviews for Courtship.

See reactions and reviews for Roller Coaster.

See reactions and reviews for Unfinished Business.

See reactions and reviews for Risk Worth Taking.

See reactions and reviews for The Candidate.

See reactions and reviews for Nightmare in Parallax.

See reactions and reviews for The Hidden Room.

See reactions and reviews for Loaded Dice.

Issue 25

back front cover issue #25, 1st edition by DEW: "The covers! Mesmerizing is what they are -- and I'd gladly have paid the price for then alone (yeah, even Kirk's portrait alone). His quiet, thoughtful expression -- the one we all love -- where that boyish twinkle is barely visible, is perfectly captured by DEW, Spock's look has the same introspection, laced with a trace of curiosity, probably as to what his human's thinking. And that is left to wide open speculation. Perfect!"

"...VERY authentic and accurate, almost like a photograph."

front cover issue #25, 1st edition by DEW: "What a beautiful Kirk—Outstanding!"

"As I was thumbing through my FIRST TIMEs, I was reminded again how much I like the Kirk on the cover. It is exactly as I imagine him and I have visualised the cover when I've read several stories."

"James T. Kirk by DEW - the eyelashes, his lips, the crumpled brow, ahh"

cover of issue #25, 2nd edition

First Time 25 was published in 1990 and contains 184 pages.

The covers are by DEW. The interior art is by Dragon, Susan Dundas, and Kay Wells.

• Such a Little Thing, fiction by Elizabeth Scott ("Spockʼs 2nd Pon Farr approaches and his plans to go to Vulcan to be castrated are thwarted when Kirk goes with him.") (4)
• A Glass of Brandy, fiction by Sharon St. James ("While on shore leave, Kirk inadvertently mixes alcohol and pain medication, causing him to confess his feelings for Spock to McCoy.") (26)
• The Waiting Game, poem by Rachel Cavendish (41)
• Wishing Well, fiction by Karla Kelly ("Leaving a diplomatic conference, Kirk and Spock walk back to their hotel and passing a wishing well, each makes a wish.") (42)
• Candles in the Dark, poem by Rachel Cavendish (49)
• Beautiful Truth, fiction by Jean Gabriel ("After almost telling Kirk of his love while melded with Kollos, Spock becomes distant and asks for a transfer.") (50)
• The Light, poem by Cybel Harper (73)
• Antidote, fiction by Kay Wells ("On a landing party Kirk inhales a drug that makes people believe their greatest wish is true, so he returns thinking he and Spock are lovers.") (75)
• Thin Ice, poem by Rachel Cavendish (99)
• Bed Song, fiction by Sarah B. Leonard ("Arriving before their reservations, Kirk and Spock must take rooms in a cheaper hotel, where Spockʼs squeaking bed keeps Kirk awake all night.") (100)
• Broken Bonds, fiction by Scott Hunter (118)
• Unwilling Dies the Rose, fiction by Janis E. Laine ("Kirk is still enthralled with Helen Noel when they leave the Tantalus colony, and it soon begins to undermine his command.") (146)
• Book Mark, poem by Rachel Cavendish (184)

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  from #25, Dragon for "Such a Little Thing"

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  from #25, Susan K. Dundas for "A Glass of Brandy"

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  from #25, Kay Wells for "A Glass of Brandy" - "What a darling picture. The men are beautiful and it fits perfectly with the story. Kay Wells is fabulous! I wish she were triplets. All equally talented of course."

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  from #25, Kay Wells for "Antidote"

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  from #25, poem and illo

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  from #25, sample text from "Unwilling Dies the Rose"

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 25

See reactions and reviews for A Glass of Brandy.

See reactions and reviews for Unwilling Dies the Rose.

See reactions and reviews for Broken Bonds.

See reactions and reviews for Bed Song.

See reactions and reviews for Antidote.

See reactions and reviews for Beautiful Truth.

See reactions and reviews for Such a Little Thing.

See reactions and reviews for Wishing Well.

[Bed Song]: The author has captured the characters of both Kirk and Spock very well. Her premise is believable and the characters' actions are too.

[The Bed Song]: Most enjoyable...especially if you've ever tried to make love quietly in a squeaking bed!

This was a very readable version of no-room-at-the-inn shoreleave. Not too far removed from others, it contained a nice look at Spock's selflessness.

Issue 26

front cover issue #26, 1st edition by Chris Soto: "Not only are these covers two of the best, most detailed portraits I've ever seen, but they so accurately reflect our heroes from the fifth movie. I'm amazed."

back cover issue #26, 1st edition by Chris Soto: "Again, her photographic art just makes you shake your head in wonder, how can anyone get such perfect likenesses. I've repeated my words or praise for her work until those poor words are in rags. May her drawing materials and abilities last forever!"

"Absolutely magnificent, especially the portrait of Kirk. She has captured the mature man just perfectly. I know nothing of line and form, shape or texture, but I know when I see a look in the eye that says Kirk, that says strength and vulnerability, and especially maturity. This is the man who has grown, and learned from his mistakes, someone who is willing to be more open than he was in the past, but still has the steel strength of will from his youth. That's what those eyes and that face say to me. This is the best older Kirk portrait I have seen, and I really envy the lucky person who has the original hanging on their wall. Interested in a trade?

"Here’s Captain Kirk at his very, very best! The Eisenhower style jacket that we got to see so little of just does wonderful things for him, especially in the talented hands of Chris Soto. Oh, Chris, I hope that some way you know how much your legacy means to us all. I love Kirk’s hair in this portrait. I want to touch it! And it’s so realistic I know exactly how it would feel, soft but springy, thick and just a bit unruly. Great stuff!"

First Time 26 was published in September 1990 and contain 167 pages.

The covers are by Chris Soto, the interior art is by Susan K. Dundas and Kay Wells.

From the editorial:

First, I want to plug Regina Moore's 'LOC Connection', [address redacted]. Not that I mind sending LOC'S along BUT if you all subscribed, then you'd all hear your loc's and no editor would have to deal with it. So, what do you think? At the present, a lot of you are sending the same loc's to The Connection as you send me, and it does seem redundent [sic]. Just a thought.

There aren't a lot of stories in this issue, but the long one should keep your interest (read - HC and sex -- what else is there?) and less poetry. Now before you clap, I want you all to promise to read the poetry in this issue. There isn't much and believe me, you'll find it worth reading. And there's even less art. Now FT usually has a lot of art (relatively speaking) so those of you who feel the need can get out the pencils and get busy. I've worn out a lot of artists and they need help!

Many, many thanks to Chris Soto's magnificent covers (surely award winners, eh?) and there is a story that just jumped onto paper in response. (Don't write at once, the covers are long since sold -- hah!)

Shore Leave was a blast and hope to see many of you at October Trek or at the ST 25th anniversary next year (read: I wouldn't miss it for the world.)

• To Have It All, fiction by Judith Coventry ("Kirk returns home for his motherʼs wedding.") (4)
• Whispers, fiction by Karla Kelly ("After VʼGer, Kirk proclaims his feelings when he and Spock have to share a cabin on the Enterprise.") (36)
• Pandora's Box, fiction by Telana Wells ("A keepsake box from McCoyʼs future contains “movies” showing Kirk and Spock as a couple.") (38)
• Watchfire, fiction by Susan K. Dundas ("When abducted from a planet in the Neutral Zone, Kirk and Spock bond to keep Kirkʼs mind safe from their Romulan captor.") (56)
• Sunshine of Your Love, poem by Rachel Cavendish (139)
• If Ever I Would Leave You, fiction by Kay Wells ("A/U: A year into the 2nd mission, Kirk & McCoy go to a Vulcan awards ceremony, not realizing that Spock has left Gol and will be there, reigniting Kirkʼs pain at the loss of Spock and his undeclared feelings for him.") (140)
• Time Enough, fiction by Jane Fury (aka Robin Hood) ("After the death of Sybok, Kirk and Spock reflect on their relationship while resting in Spockʼs cabin.")
• Time Enough, "Kleenex Poetry" by Ciana Mitchell.

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  from issue #26, Susan K. Dundas

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  from issue #26, Susan K. Dundas

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  from issue #26, DEW

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  from issue #26, DEW

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 26

See reactions and reviews for Watchfire.

See reactions and reviews for If Ever I Would Leave You.

See reactions and reviews for Time Enough.

See reactions and reviews for To Have It All.

See reactions and reviews for Whispers.

See reactions and reviews for Pandora's Box.

[zine]: I just picked up FT 26 at a con and felt compelled to comment. I'll comment on the bothersome story first. The Wanderer [sic], by Susan Dundas, disturbed me immensely. It was far too well written, as is frequently the case, and the story line far too hurtful. The story was too rough for me. So be it, in general. The First Times are more gentle. I'm certain that this is a one time aberration of the editor since the rest of the Zine was the sweet, well-written first time stories I've come to expect from merry Men Press.

To Have It All from a new writer, Judith Coventry, is a delightful trip home to Earth. A story of Kirk's mother's second marriage and Spock's appearance there.

If Ever I Would Leave You by Kay Wells is a good example of First Time stories. Strong, well-written and very steamy. Ms. Wells is fast becoming a main stay in K/S fandom, and certainly one of my favorites.

Time Enough by Jane Fury is a Star Trek V story, which leaves you with a better understanding of the movie and a very warm spot in your heart.

But all are surpassed by my favorite story, Pandora's Box. An innovative story, nicely-written, by Telana Wells, that delves into Kirk's and Spock's life in another universe via old holograms. Or is it another universe????? ...

Poetry, and as the editor states truly 'kleenex poetry' by Dana Mitchell and Rachel Cavendish framed by exquisite Chris Soto covers enclose another good example of First Time.

[covers]: What’s the first thing you see of a zine? The covers, of course -- and these are spectacular! Spock exudes stoicism from the front cover, showing the maturity and the uniform of the post-Genesis era. Ahhh, but the back.... Here’s Captain Kirk at his very, very best! The Eisenhower style jacket that we got to see so little of just does wonderful things for him, especially in the talented hands of Chris Soto. Oh, Chris, I hope that some way you know how much your legacy means to us all. I love Kirk’s hair in this portrait. I want to touch it! And it’s so realistic I know exactly how it would feel, soft but springy, thick and just a bit unruly. Great stuff!

[covers]: FIRST TIME 26 has a wonderful Chris Soto matching set of covers done in 1990. These are pen and ink portraits which include the shoulders, and the time is somewhere ST IV to VI, I believe. The front cover is Spock, facing to the right, looking straight at the viewer with one eyebrow raised. The back cover is Kirk looking at the front cover of Spock since he is looking to the left. This Kirk is gorgeous and is quite realistic, very true to life. Anyone looking at it without the clue of the uniform would know it's Shatner. Spock is well done, too. The two covers alone are worth the price of the zine.

Issue 27

First Time 27 was published in December 1990 and contains 194 pages.

back cover of issue #27, Marilyn Cole. The front and back covers illustrate the story, "A Wing and a Prayer." -- "... for those of you who haven't already seen FT 27's covers, they are wonderful. Spock on Pegasus i.e. Kirk reflects the power and energy of both rider and horse."

front cover of issue #27, Marilyn Cole: "Marilyn and I see eye to eye on the way a man's body should look, especially as long as you're dreaming and can have everything you want. Although, come to think of it, with the model she uses, she doesn't have to do much dreaming or compromising. She does a mighty fine horse."

The covers are by Marilyn Cole, and the interior art is by Emily Adams, DEW, Dragon, and Chris Soto.

• The Best Man, fiction by by Kay Wells ("Spock has Sarek find him a new bondmate after TʼPringʼs rejection and asks Kirk and McCoy to accompany him as “guaranteers” when his warrior bonding is to take place.") (35)

cover issue #27, 2nd edition

• Academy, fiction by Susan Peacock (one source says Jonni Corday) ("While teaching at the academy, Spock comes to aid of a young cadet being beaten.") (36)
• Man to Man, poem by Cybel Harper (44)
• Games of Chance, fiction by Karla Kelly ("Death and Luck take turns wagering on Kirk and Spockʼs lives.") (45)
• The Other Son, poem by Susan Peacock (49a)
• The Proper Motivation, fiction by Judith Coventry ("McCoy is kidnapped while he and Kirk are on shoreleave but the investigating officer is paying more attention to Kirk than Spock is comfortable with.") (50)
• The Musician, poem by Rachel Cavendish (91a)
• Stormwatch, poem by Rachel Cavendish (93)
• A Wing and a Prayer, fiction by Charlotte Frost ("When Kirk is rude to a merchant while on leave with Spock, the man turns him into a winged horse and itʼs up to Spock to find a way to return him to his true form.") (94)
• A Farewell to the Poet, poem by Rachel Cavendish (126)
• One Tin Soldier - novella, fiction by Ciana Mitchell ("Kirk is raped and tortured, and unable to deal with the trauma, finds himself avoiding touch and tempting fate while old memories surface of a previous violation.") (127)
• Justice, poem by Rachel Cavendish (194)

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  from issue #27, Chris Soto - "This illo of Spock sleeping on top of Kirk defines what K/S means to me. I believe it is the most heart-warming illo I've ever seen. How can words say more than their expressions do?"
  
  "This picture falls into a category of art which I like to call "Pillow Pictures', I sure wish I could add this work to my collection. I've mentioned before that I know so very little about art that I feel quite awkward commenting on it. But occasionally I try if a piece is really striking. I guess I like this picture because Spock looks so much like himself. His expression is a combination of peace and intense incredulity, as if he's saying to himself, 'How is it possible for me to love so much?" The intensity of his feeling is almost painful. Kirk is thinking much the same, but he's expressing the thought in his typically more flamboyant fashion. Anyway, they're both in the grip of strong emotion, and the way they're holding on to one another reinforces that impression. I find a curious dichotomy in this picture. My first impression was 'Oh, good, another peaceful pillow picture.' (I love those, I'm just a sappy romantic at heart.) It was only upon closer examination that I saw that the peace which I expected through the setting, (the two of then in bed holding one another) was belied by the intensity of the emotions conveyed by their expressions. There is tension between the expectation and the reality, there is tension in the emotion displayed, and there is even tension in the way each of the men is experiencing their emotion alone, with eyes closed, even though they are touching intimately. I wonder if this is what the artist intended?. Chris, if you are out there reading this, why not write in and tell me how far off the mark I am? Unfortunately, some of the effect of this piece of art is lost because there is text printed on the other side of the page and it bleeds through quite obviously. I understand that there night be technical reasons for printing art in such a way, but I wish an exception could have been made for this rather exceptional artwork."

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  from issue #27, Dragon

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 27

See reactions and reviews for A Wing and a Prayer.

See reactions and reviews for One Tin Soldier.

See reactions and reviews for The Proper Motivation.

See reactions and reviews for Games of Chance.

See reactions and reviews for Academy.

See reactions and reviews for The Best Man.

[art]: ...for those of you who haven't already seen FT 27's covers, they are wonderful. Spock on Pegasus i.e. Kirk reflects the power and energy of both rider and horse.

[art on 43a]: Love this illo of the aovie Kirk and Spock being 'cozy' with their clothes on. Kirk's expression is particularly revealing.

[Academy]: This name [Jonni Corday] is new to me. Is the writer new? I liked the basic idea and plot, but I would liked to have seen it fleshed out and elaborated on more. What was there was quite pleasing, I just wanted more.

Issue 28

back cover issue #28, 1st edition by DEW - "Maybe this drawing was from a photograph: or can the artist take credit for the incredibly sexy half-smile? Whatever, it is a perfectly gorgeous drawing in flawless technique as usual."

front cover issue #28, 1st edition by DEW

cover issue #28, 2nd edition

First Time 28 was published in 1991 (apparently in June, the same time as "First Time" #29) and contains 189 pages.

The covers are by DEW and the interior art is by Fiona Graves.

• When He Smiles, fiction by Roberta Haga ("Spockʼs statement of “being happy” after Omicron Ceti cause Kirk to rethink his idea that Spock might love him.") (4)
• False Starts, fiction by D.A. Martin ("Twice, Spock removes the memories from Kirk of their lovemaking because of Kirkʼs reactions of guilt and shame.") (14)
• The Long Road, poem by Robin Hood (25)
• Love Letters in the Sand, fiction by Gena Moretti ("While McCoy sleeps, Kirk and Spock declare their love by writing in the sand when on shore leave together.") (26)
• A Perfect Mate, fiction by Anne McClean ("Kirkʼs inability to be faithful causes Spock to call off their affair after leaving Flintʼs planet.") (32)
• When All Else Fails, poem by Kelley Graves (64)
• No Win Situation, poem by Kelley Graves (65)
• Lovers Embrace, poem by Kelley Graves (65)
• Talisman, fiction by Theresa Kyle ("Kirk and Spock meet in Pikeʼs home before Kirk takes command and remember back to their affair as cadets.") (66)
• The Best of Me, fiction by Jennifer Cobbing ("After the Klingon Peace Conference,Kirk thinks back to when he first met David and when he and Spock first came together.") (100)
• The Decision, fiction by Jean Gabriel ("After Sybokʼs death, Kirk asks Spock why he never told him about his brother.") (152)
• Random Words, poem by Robin Hood (167)
• When Tomorrow Comes, fiction by Charlotte Frost ("Kirk is about to tell Spock of his love when Spock is abducted. When heʼs found, Kirk is afraid that Spock would now be repulsed by that love.") (168)
• When He Smiles, poem by Roberta Haga (189)

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  from issue #28, Fiona Graves for "The Best of Me"

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  from issue #28, Fiona Graves for "The Best of Me"

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  from issue #28, poem

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  from issue #28, first page of "A Perfect Mate"

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 28

See reactions and reviews for The Decision.

See reactions and reviews for The Best of Me.

See reactions and reviews for A Perfect Mate.

See reactions and reviews for Love Letters in the Sand.

See reactions and reviews for False Starts.

See reactions and reviews for When He Smiles.

See comments for When Tomorrow Comes.

See reactions and reviews for Talisman.

Issue 29

front cover issue #29, 1st edition by Caren Parnes: "These covers are lovely. They are Caren Parnes' usual "photographic" style, but the backgrounds are black which I don't think is unusual for her. The front shows a young version of our lovers; the back, an older version. I prefer the back as Kirk really looks quite handsome in this one. These are the same covers as on THE POETS AND I. They deserve repeating.

back cover issue #29, 1st edition by Caren Parnes -- "These lovely covers were done to celebrate the 25th anniversary of Star Trek and published in 1991. If you are familiar with this artist‘s work you know how fabulous she is. I don‘t know what I can say about these pieces except these are more of the glorious same. The front cover shows us a very young captain and first officer just starting out on their legendary journey. Behind them rides their ship, truly a silver lady. From the innocence depicted on their faces, they don‘t know yet where this command will take them, what hardships they will endure, what triumphs they will share, what trials will turn trust into love. The back cover gives us Kirk and Spock as admiral and captain, circa Star Trek II. The viewer can see the experiences—both good and bad—that lights their eyes, the quiet comfort they take in each other, and I fancy I can see the love they have found as well. Behind them is the refitted Enterprise. I wish I could reach into the picture and tell them that though there will be grief to come, they will also find each other again. Thank you for these, Caren.

cover issue #29, 2nd edition

First Time 29 was published in June 1991 and contains 189 pages. The front and back covers were originally used for the front and back of the zine The Poets and I in 1986.

From the editorial:

29, eh, and rising? (intriguing image). I'll be mailing out FT 28 this week, still getting ready for the 25th anniversary in June, with every intention to be well out of the path of other editors thundering into the printer and working on Playfellows II.

Hopefully, you'll notice covers that you may or may not have seen before. If you're a poetry buff, then you'll have seen them, (but one more time won't hurt any of us) if you haven't, aren't theypretty? Caren Parnes at her best. I throw away tremendous amounts of covers (printers charge regardless of amount run) and I've never been able to throw these away. And since they were used on 'THE POETS & I', in a limited run, and I couldn't bring myself to trash them and this is for the 25th anniversary and the pictures span from the old series into the movies.... Oh, well, you get the idea, don't you? (Perverts you might be but not stupid) And we can't forget the talented (short), feisty (bitchy), busy (frantic) Kay Wells, whose lovely art within adds so much. In fact, you won't be able to forget her (at least not for a while), her Mirror novel, GAMBIT is in my hands and will also go to printer next month, (just think of it as a dearth of Kirk's and Spock's.) A story of both universe's. Haven't you ever wondered what happened to the Mirror pair? Well, it's twenty years in the futvire and you're going to get to know!

Let's not forget the new authors within. Anne McClean (dear Kirk, I hope I have her name spelled correctly!) She is a very talented new baby writer and as such will certainly expect your comments.

You know what means. You either have to write me or subscribe to TLC. Get the addresses from FT 27. (What? You don't have it!!! -- Go stand in the comer and think of a nude Spock for 15 minutes) And of course, you must never forget the ah... older, wiser, aging writers that have been delighting you since you found K/S heaven. If you don't comment, then there will be NO zines! GET BUSY AND WRITE AN LOC! You can send it in the form of a review to a number of addzines, you can send it to me but you have to do something, (trying your own talents might help -- hint, hint.)

There are other new writers within: which brings me to this months (okay, this hour's) screw up: Will anyone who knows two women whose pen names are Lynn Thomas and Elizabeth Kay, please let me know who the hell they ready are so I can get them their 'trib' copies??????

God, I do love fandom.... Sigh.

Okay, enough drivel....

• Wildest Dreams, fiction by Elizabeth Kay and Lynn Thomas ("Kirk seduces Spock on the Shore Leave planet, unaware that there are programming problems and that the Spock he seduced is the real one.") (4)
• art by Dragon (The editor's note in the table of contents: "sorry about the sign, the printer struck again!) (10a)
• Three D, poem by J. Mercedes (16)
• Dance Lessons, poem by Rachel Cavendish (17)

• A Glitch in the System, fiction by D.A. Marsh ("The Enterprise causes malfunctions in her systems in order to bring Kirk and Spock together.") (18)
• art by DEW (32)
• Star Child, poem by Annie Fitzgibbons (33)

• A Thought in the Dark, fiction by Jamie Erin Mason ("Through their link, Spock reads Kirkʼs desire to be dominated and so goes to his room to oblige him.") (34)
• Mind's Eye, fiction by Jean Gabriel ("Kirkʼs partial amnesia after hitting his head turns out to be hiding a night together with Spock to which he had reacted with guilt and shame.") (38)

• Heart's Whole, poem by J. Mercedes (62)
• Seasons Change, poem by Cybel Harper (63)
• Rumors, fiction by Karla Kelly (novella) (Includes the trope Double Ridges. "Terrorist activities on Starbase 12 interrupt a planned “honeymoon” by Kirk and Spock and then cause a blackout through the entire base.") (64)
• art by Raven (75a)
• art by DEW (87a)
• All Things, poem by Sarah B. Leonard (149)
• A Perfect Arrangement, fiction by Anne McClean ("A soon to be appointed command team are on the Enterprise to study Kirk and Spock but turn out to have plans of “swapping” command partners.") (150)
• Gentle Knight, poem by Anne Fitzgibbons (188)
• Players, poem by Emily Ross (inside back cover)

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  from issue #29, Raven. Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized.

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  from issue #29, DEW. Note: Marked as sexually explicit; minimized. - "My favorite of the zine, of several zines. I believe this was waking up from sleep, always a particularly sweet time. I like the quiet hint of dominant/submissive, no matter who's what; although maybe the artist had no such intent."

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  from issue #29, Dragon

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  from issue #29, sample text

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  from issue #29, DEW -- "Oh, another pillow picture! I love them in general and this one is a particularly fine example. They’re both asleep this time, Kirk on his back, Spock on his side towards the viewer. Spock has the tiniest little smile on his face, and mussed bangs too, so we know exactly what has been going on before they succumbed to weariness! The view is from the waist up so the emphasis is where it should be.... They’re having sweet dreams."

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  from issue #29, sample poem

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 29

See reactions and reviews for A Perfect Arrangement.

See reactions and reviews for A Thought in the Dark.

See reactions and reviews for Wildest Dreams.

See reactions and reviews for Rumors.

See reactions and reviews for Mind's Eye.

See reactions and reviews for A Glitch in the System.

Issue 30

First Time 30 was published in 1991 and contains 183 pages.

The covers are by Kay Wells. The inside art is by Fiona Graves, Billie Phillips, Sara B. Leonard, C. Meyers (NOTE: C. Meyers is NOT Christine Meyers.), and Kay Wells.

-- "It is a pencil drawing of Kirk and Spock from ST:TMP with the movie Enterprise on the bottom third of the illo. The likenesses are very accurate, the faces show the maturity of the older versions of K and S, yet there is a youthfulness and a vitality that shines through. The soft pencil technique makes it take on a dreamy effect as if looking at the drawing through a fine gauze. Kirk's eyes in particular are very lifelike staring straight at you, command persona intermingled with the sensitivity of the inner man. I was also very impressed with the rendering of the Enterprise. I have noticed that unless its an adventure genzine geared toward males and the more technically minded, few fan artists (and certainly in K/S) present detailed representations of space ships. Ms. Wells has done a wonderful job here. The ship is rendered in fine detail and proportion, it enhances the above portrayal of Kirk and Spock. I am continually impressed at the quality of art covers found on this zine and find the front cover and back DEW covers to be some of her best work. Thank you, Kay Wells, for helping keep the boys' love 'alive' for me." --

back cover issue #30 by Kay Wells -- "What can I say? This portrait of a young Kirk is without a doubt the best I have ever seen by an artist, in any zine. It is extraordinary, absolutely riveting to look at. The man's personality literally looks out to you from the page. I have enjoyed some of this artist's previous work, but this drawing surpasses by light years anything else I have seen by her. There just aren't enough superlatives to describe it." --

• Fantasy's Fire, fiction by Judith Coventry ("Having declared their love, Kirkʼs reaction to the events on Gamma Hydra 4 threaten to separate him from Spock.") (4)
• The Puzzle, fiction by Karla Kelly ("After Kirk turns down the advances of a desirable female, Spock meditates on what this might mean in regards to Jimʼs relationship with him.") (18)
• First Command, poem by Kay Wells (25)
• Humbug, fiction by Elizabeth Kay, Lynn Thomas ("Kirk dreams of losing Spock while fighting for his life in sickbay from a viral infection.") (26)
• Measure of Friendship, fiction by Penny Wise ("While on sickleave together, Kirk and Spock attempt a brotherhood bond.") (52)
• The Oldest Story, fiction by Anne McClean ("After McCoy hears Kirkʼs confession of his love and desire for Spock, he fears for Kirkʼs well being when it turns out that Spock denies his own desire.") (62)
• Catnip, fiction by Telana Wells ("After leaving Pike on Talos 4, Kirk has trouble forgiving Spock.") (100)
• “Animal Passion”, fiction by Ellen O'Neil ("“While investigating the disappearances of Federation citizens, Kirk and Spock are turned into a lion and panther by the woman responsible.") (134)
• The Summons, fiction by Emily Adams ("On a diplomatic mission, Kirk suddenly feels drawn back to Earth, where he finds Spock entering pon farr.") (160)
• The Legend, poem by Robin Hood (182)
• When I look in Your Eyes, poem by Sue Cameron (183)

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  from issue #30, Sarah B. Leonard for "Animal Passion"

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  from issue #30, Fiona Graves for "Catnip" -- "This is a portrait of the series Spock. Its draftsmanship is superb and what I consider photographic. Some artists may blow hot and cold as far as getting the characters' features down pat, but Ms. Myers [NOTE: this reviewer attributes this art to the wrong artist, and in fact, she is not alone in misattribution. The editor did as well, confusing "C. Meyers" and Christine Myers ] (and I've been admiring her art for years) has always been consistent in the high quality of her work. I don't think I have ever seen one of her illos that has disappointed me. The firmness of the lips, the set determination of the eyes present a powerful rendition of this subject. The way the light glistens off the hair, one senses that if they reached out and touched it, one could feel its softness." --

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  from issue #30, Kay Wells for "Measure of Friendship"

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  from issue #30, C. Myers [NOTE: This is NOT Christine Myers] for "The Puzzle"

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  from issue #30, Kay Wells for "The Summons"

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  from issue #30, Billie Phillips for "Humbug"

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  from issue #30, sample poem

Reactions and Reviews: Issue 30

See reactions and reviews for The Oldest Story.

See reactions and reviews for Fantasy's Fire.

See reactions and reviews for Measure of Friendship.

See reactions and reviews for The Puzzle.

See reactions and reviews for Catnip.

See reactions and reviews for Animal Passion.

See reactions and reviews for The Summons.

See reactions and reviews for Humbug.

[zine]: This is a K/S zine, edited by Robin Hood, and follows the established format for the series, containing short stories depicting various possibilities for the beginning of a relationship between Kirk and Spock. There are 8 stories in this issue, and they present a wide range of options, from pan farr to a semi-humorous piece in which an alien turns Kirk and Spock into a lion and a panther respectively. The time range covers from Kirk's first taking over command of the Enterprise, to his days as a Admiral. The stories are well crafted and constructed; I thought the most effective was 'The Oldest Story', by Anne McClean, in which Kirk confides in McCoy the progress of his long-standing and unreciprocated love for Spock, beginning with his first day on the ship and finding a resolution after the episode on Sarpeidon. The author very cleverly weaves in the events of the five-year mission, and handles a difficult form of construction with conviction. The zine also contains 4 pieces of poetry and 8 illustrations. The covers, by Kay Wells, are very striking, a beautiful rendition of the TMP Kirk and Spock with the Enterprise on the front, and a delightful portrait of Kirk on the back.