|Fandom/s:||Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, Stargate Universe, Battlestar Galactica (2003), Dexter, Firefly, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel the Series, Dollhouse, Caprica, Sanctuary, True Blood, Eureka, Psych, First Wave, Game of Thrones, MCU, Defiance, AHS, MCU, DCU|
|You can find me at:||Go to Your Happy Place-Vids For the Masses Vidders.net AO3|
|On Fanlore:||My contributions / email me|
I'm a FOC who loves writing, reading fic, scifi, fantasy and historical fantasy. I love strawberries, h/c, angst-ridden longfic, and slash.
I first got into fandom when I was 13, reading and writing K/S and S/McCoy fic. At the time I didn't know what 'fandom' was and didn't realize that there were so many others who had the same interests. In the intervening years, I've made many good and solid friendships and fallen into Stargate as my verse of choice. I've also fallen for an OTP (Jack/Daniel), vidded my heart out, written some fairly bad fic (not badfic, I hope!), recced every nugget of gold I came across, roleplayed and engaged in numerous online communities. I've been to two Cons as of yet (WisCon35 and Escapade 2013).
For a complete list of my vids, visit holdt.webs.com (viable, but under construction 2016-2017)
|FANVIDS BY HOLDT|
|Brothers||2012||flashes, Vidding practicum, filial rivalry, royal inrigue, crack||Thor (movies), MCU||Brother by Holdt||Summary: Kings get all the cool toys.
Music by: Beck & Kilian
|I'll Lay You Down||2012||Jack/DanielWarnings: flashes, fast cuts, dubstep editing, NSFW||Stargate SG-1||I'll Lay You Down by Holdt||Summary: When the wars are over, we'll find our piece of Heaven.
Notes: Started out trying to redux Don't Ask (2009), realized that I didn't like anything about it except a few clips, so I mixed, clipped and added a pinch of spice. Music by: Adam Lambert
|Underneath(Collab)||2012 Holdt & Darcy||Jack/Daniel, Warnings: drama, reasons, ptsd||Stargate SG-1||[http://holdt.webs.com/apps/videos/videos/view/17154624-underneath Underneath by darcy/holdt||Summary: Jack isn't sure what Daniel sees when Daniel looks at him.
Music by: Adam Lambert
|Knight of Wands||2012||Jack/Daniel, Daniel Jackson/Sha're, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Drama, Character Study: Daniel Jackson||Stargate SG-1||Knight of Wands by Holdt||Summary: Daniel lives in a perpetual no-man's land of struggle and self-proof. Sometimes the fiercest battles happen without a ripple's warning. Jack refuses to let him fight alone.
Music by: The Wanted
|Estus immortalis||October 2011||Halloween Vid, Focus: Werewolves in popular media, 18+ for gore, brutal violence||Multifandom||||Summary: Exploring the traditional werewolf mythos. Made for Halloween 2011
Music by: Gerard McMann aka G Tom Mac
|Retro Active||2011||80s Challenge, Warnings: violence against women, violence by women, some flashes, fast paced, cracky||Red Sonja (1985)||Retro Active by holdt||Summary: Vengeance is a dish best served with crack.
Music by: Gap Band (1982)
|In Shadow (Collab)||2011 - Darcy & Holdt||Graphic Depictions Of Violence,Jack/Daniel, Secret Relationship, DADT Repeal, Dark, Closeted Character||Stargate SG-1||In Shadow by holdt & darcy||Summary: There's a part of Jack that he never wanted Daniel to know.
Music by: Delain
|Oedipal||2011||Character Focus/POV: William - Warnings: fast moving||BTVS||Oedipal by holdt||Summary: "Mockery is a rust that corrodes all it touches." - Milan Kundera
Music by: Lady Gaga
|Love's Dream||2011||Made for the 2011 COA Outside the Norm Challenge, het, schmaltzy, flashes, Bangel||BTVS, AtS||Love's Dream by holdt||Summary: In a dimension parallel to what is, what could be lives on.
Music by: Kevin MacLeod
|Fandom Mine (Trailer)||2011||Fandom Trailer Challenge,||Stargate SG-1||Fandom Mine by Holdt||Summary: "Meaning of Life stuff."
Music by: The XX
|Transference (Collab)||2011 - Holdt & Buefo||Jack/Daniel, '''Trigger warnings''': 18+ warning, NSFW/NC17 for graphic content, bad BDSM, dubious consent/non-con, mind-control/viral contagion, unsafe & insane, dark,||Stargate SG-1||Transference by Buefo & Holdt||Summary: (AMTDI) Jack has been exposed to/possessed by a dangerously self-aware, contagious virus. The organism or virus is enacting Jack's own darkest fantasies, bringing his inner-self to the fore with no regard for inhibitions, taboos or cultural context. Jack's most hidden feral side wants, so the organism bypasses all that lovely military Ops discipline and takes. It's almost as if Jack's Id has bypassed his superego entirely. This once, the team doesn't manage to save him in time
Music by: Nine Inch Nails
|Collision||2011||McShep, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, John/Rodney, stutter-cuts, fast moving, angst, dark||SGA||Collision by Holdt||Summary: "But break, my heart, for I must hold my tongue." ~Hamlet, scene ii
Music by: AFI
|Let Me Stay||2011 Dedicated to pinkdiamonds||Jack/Daniel, Grief, Canonical Character Death, Meridian, Whump||Stargate SG-1||Let Me Stay by Holdt||Summary: Jack's never been good at letting go.
Music by: Jorma Kaukonen
|Wicked (Collab)||2011 - Holdt & Darcy||Jack/Daniel, Surreal, Hallucinations, UST, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Mature imagery||Stargate SG-1||Wicked by Holdt& Darcy||Summary: Jack doesn't want to fall in love.
Music by: Chris Isaak
|Double Deal||2011 - Dedicated to Jdjunkie||Jack/Daniel, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Self-Sacrifice, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Established Relationship||Stargate SG-1||Double Deal by Holdt||Summary: If I only could, I'd make a deal with God, and get Him to swap our places.
Music by: Placebo
|Slipping||2011||Jack-Sarah, Daniel-Share, Angst, Pre-Relationship, Grief, Pre-Slash Death References||Stargate SG-1||Slipping by Holdt||Summary: "How can I hold on, with nothing to hold onto?"
Music by: Stabbing Westward
|Solar||2011||Sam Carter/Joe Faxon, Jack/Daniel, Comedy, Beatwork exercise, Plot Arc - Time Travel||Stargate SG-1||Solar by Holdt||Summary: 365 days of a year; runnin' around, runnin' round and going nowhere...
Music by: Aura Dione
|Run Away||2011||Jack/Daniel, Angst, Romance, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Mature imagery||Stargate SG-1, Stargate Continuum||Run Away by Holdt||Summary: For years they've been running. Now it's time to stop.
Music by: Leona Lewis
|Subterfuge||2011||Character Study: Daniel Jackson||Stargate SG-1||Subterfuge by Holdt||Summary: Daniel grows disillusioned with his role as Higher Plane errand-boy.
Music by: Halestorm - Dirty Work
|Unanswered||2011||Jack/Daniel, Angst, Ascension, Unreliable Memories, canon-typical trauma||Stargate SG-1||Unanswered by Holdt||Summary: Daniel can't trust his own memories. (Post-Fallen)
Music by: Devil Wears Prada/cover by mmhmmeric of Youtube
|Other||2010||Character Study: Teal'c, Drey'auc/Teal'c, Rya'c, flashes, Characters of Color, Chromatic Character, Ethics, War Crimes, Post-War||Stargate SG-1, SGA||Other by Holdt||Summary: Teal'c - integral, necessary and all too often ignored. He is truly a man alone, more so than any other character on SG, given his alien status, birth, upbringing/culture and his choice to rebel in a society that does not tolerate rebellion.
Music by: Gavin DeGraw
|Do You||2010||Trinity/Neo, het, flashing lights, fast-paced, meta-crack||Matrix Trilogy]||Do You by Holdt||Summary: What or who is Neo really fighting for? Trinity isn't sure, but she and Neo have to figure it out.
Music by: The Guild
|Something Else||2010||Study: S.T.O. and Sister Clarice Willow||Caprica||Something Else by Holdt||Summary: This is how it falls apart.
Notes: This vid stems from my unease at the main story arc of Caprica, and my views on the socio-political environment of the show and any organization that employs such extremist/anarchist values. Here is how it all leads to the extremist idealogy becoming ingrained in the Cylon's programming, and how that programming becomes the true seed of the Cylon/Human War of Battlestar Galactica. Music by: Halestorm
|Still Waters||November 2010||Character Study: Daniel Jackson, mainstream blip, naughty wordbits, angry vidder vibes, hip-hop stylism, flashy flashes||Stargate SG-1||Still Waters by Holdt||Summary: Daniel hates Apophis' effin' guts (for those who didn't know).
Music by: Eminem - Go to Sleep
|Breathe You In||November 2010||Jack/Daniel, steaminess/sensuality, men being sweet on each other, mature content, angst, some dickery||Stargate SG-1||[www.holdt.webs.com/apps/videos/videos/show/11372509-breathe-you-in Breathe You In by Holdt]||Summary: Jack is more disturbed than he lets on about how Daniel always seems to find admirers in the worst situations, and in the middle of a conversation he finds he cant hold his tongue. He lashes out, despite the fact that this time, Daniel was under the influence of an alien device.
Daniel tries to explain, but Jack doesn't want to hear any more excuses - his pride and his fear that he's is too old /Daniel doesn't really want him choke any kindness down. They separate, Daniel moves back into his old apartment, and in day to day life, they try to act as though nothing is amiss. However, neither can stop thinking of the other, or of how desperately they miss each other, and their thoughts always go to the one time they were able to take advantage of downtime to actually be together. Watch for the rest!
Music by: Halestorm - Familiar Taste of Poison
|Hide & Seek||November 2010||Jack/Daniel,crack, slash, more crack, actual jungle fever and even more crack.Also, manly parts moving in tandem.||Stargate SG-1||Hide & Seek by Holdt||Summary: During downtime, Daniel gets bored. Jack always has the cure for what ails him.
Music by: AASMA - Ghoomi Hai Humne Sari Duniya
|Khef, Ka & Ka-tet||November 2010||My tribute to Stephen King's Dark Tower series.||Dark Tower Series (Books & Graphic Novels)||Khef, Ka & Ka-tet by Holdt||Notes: I'd also like to acknowledge and thank:
Universal Artists,FOX Networks, Embassy Television, Illustrators Michael Whelan, Phil Hale, Ned Dameron, Dave McKean, Bernie Wrightson, Darrel Anderson and of course, Stephen King, for 30 years of thrills, chills and tears.
Music by: Coldplay - Lost
|Errata||October 2010||Mature imagery. 18+ for violence, partial nudity, gore, sexual situations and mature content, feline homicide and general freakiness||Splice||Errata by Holdt||Summary: Dren isn't the only one with issues.
Music by: Linkin Park and X-Ray Dog
|Turn Me On||October 2010||Booty shakin' and crazy makin'.||Glee||Turn Me On by Holdt||Summary: Sometimes you gotta go with the flow. Made for Chosen One Awards 2010 Born to Vid Challenge, Winner: Most Creative
Music by: K.C. & The Sunshine Band - That's the Way I Like It
|Jack is The Man||October 2010||Character Study/Tribute: Colonel Jack O'Neill.||Stargate SG-1||Jack is The Man by Holdt||Summary: Jack O'Neill's Birthday is October 20th. Made for the AccDanCloset 2010 Jack's Birthday Challenge.
Music by: Immediate Music
|Into the Light||October 2010||Hijinks, hard-knocks and the meaning of moral superiority||Starman (1984)||Into the Light by Holdt||Summary: "You're welcome" is rarely literal.
Story: When trapped in hostile territory and surrounded by primitives, the high road is a difficult one to take.
Music by: Katy Perry - E.T. - (Futuristic Lover)
|Goddess of Battle||September 2010||Character Study of Sam Carter||Stargate SG-1 Stargate: Atlantis||Goddess of Battle by Holdt||Summary: It's all about Choice.
Music by: Metric - Blindness
|Wrong Feels Right||September 2010||Character Study of Bill Compton, violence, blood, nasty!bad vamp stuf, explicit and implied domestic abuse - this vid is a mature situation||True Blood||Wrong Feels Right by Holdt||Summary: subtitled: WTF is wrong with Bill. Some things can turn even a good man bad.
Music by: Eminem & Rihanna - Love the Way you Lie
|I Wanna Marry an Archaeologist||September 2010||Jack/Daniel, Crack, Fluff, puppies an mostly rainbows.||Stargate SG-1||I Wanna Marry an Archaeologist by Holdt||Summary: Don't buy the meek explorer act. Someone thinks nerds are hot, and our favorite archaeologist has them wrapped tight around his finger. ;)
Music by: Chris Braymen - Archaeologist Song from Laura Bow II
|Fruit Loopy||August 2010||sophomoric comedy, concussive dependence, massively alarming quantities of breakfast cereal.You have been warned.||Stargate SG-1||Fruit Loopy by Holdt||Summary: Funvid, because I needed it. A comedic look at episode 4x06 - Window of Opportunity. Enjoy!
Music by: Bloodhound Gang - Legend in My Spare Time
|Black Skies||July 2010||moderate violence, spoilers for Prince of Persia: Sands of Time||Prince of Persia||Black Skies by Holdt||Summary: A foolhardy man has only himself to blame for his woes. It takes a reason to turn a foolhardy man into a great man. Dustan has many Reasons.
Story: Dustan jumps into action with no thought of how those actions will affect those he loves. When everything dear to him is taken, he fights to understand whats happened, and turns back the clock to stop his own madness.
Music by: Linkin Park - New Divide
|Lifeboat - Beneath||June 2010||Episodic Synopsis of SG-1 7x06 Lifeboat||Stargate SG-1||Lifeboat - Beneath by Holdt||Summary: Episodic Overview, Focus on Daniel Jackson
Music by: Linkin Park - Papercut
|Mad Shit||June 2010||Humor, (Chaka/Daniel), also interspecies slash and general crackiness.||Stargate SG-1||Mad Shit by Holdt||Summary: Humans invade an Unas world with no regard for their prior claim. Chaka captures Daniel as a P.O.W. and decides to keep him "indefinitely" for specific purposes. Although the rest of SG-1 searches for their lost team-mate, they are unable to recover Daniel.
Daniel fights but eventually develops Stockholm syndrome, and begins to invite the advances of Chaka. Eventually, a dialogue begins and Chaka starts to trust Daniel's loyalties. With his help, the Unas recover their world from hostile humans, and Chaka releases Daniel from his service.
Music by: 3OH!3 - Punk Bitch
|Apex||May 2010||Challenge vid, Pop music, strobe lights, may cause an uninhibited desire to dance wildly||Battlestar Galactica (2003)||Apex by Holdt||Summary: Deja vu. A study of survival - from the Cylon perspective.
Music by: Adam Lambert - For Your Entertainment
|BITE: The Big One||May 2010||Challenge vid, 18+ for gore, violence, extreme vampirism, sexual situations, sexual content, suggestive lyrics and dark everything||Multifandom, Vampires||BITE: The Big One by Holdt||Summary: These are a few of my favorite things.
Music by: Lady Gaga - Teeth
|Gunn - Punitive Damages||May 2010||Challenge vid, Character Study, mid-level violence, death, mature themes||Angel the Series||Gunn - Punitive Damages by Holdt||Summary: "Any life, no matter how long and complex it may be, is made up of a single moment - the moment in which a man finds out, once and for all, who he is." --Jorge Luis Borges
Music by: Brand New - Degausser
|Vidders.net Promo||May 2010||Promotional vid||Vidding||Vidders.net Promo by Holdt||Summary: A change is coming.
Music by: Christina Aguilera - Dynamite
|Dude||April 2010||Slash, (Jack/Daniel), Extreme language, angst, inappropriate humor||Stargate SG-1||Dude by Holdt||Summary: Wherein Jack expresses his most heartfelt feelings for the loss of Daniel
... in the most infuriatingly obtuse manner I could come up with.
Music by: Tenacious D - Dude
|Only You||March 2010||Slash, (Mal/Simon), series-specific violence, alpha/dom!Mal, sub!Simon, dominance/submission, mature imagery||Firefly/Serenity||Only You by Holdt||Story: Even in the darkness, sometimes the path is clear.|
Summary: From River's POV, as she senses it all but is powerless to explain her understanding. Simon wonders why he can't stay away from Mal. Mal wonders why he can't resist Simon's looks even though he knows the boy is trouble. They'll do anything to touch... anything. What they have is the brightest spark they can hold on to. River gets in the way despite herself. In the end, Mal decides that if River's issues are the only price he has to pay to be with Simon, then Simon's worth it.
Music by: Stabbing Westward - You Complete Me
|In Another Life||March 2010||Slash, (Jack/Daniel), (Daniel/Teal'c), (Jack/Sam)||Stargate SG-1||In Another Life by Holdt||Summary: This is a shamelessly illogical AU. Daniel expresses his interest in Jack through a series of flashbacks where Jack constantly tells him how it would never work out and insists that he's straight as an arrow.
Since DADT doesn't apply to civilian consultants (or Jaffa allies), Daniel decides to cut his losses and move on, being the survivor he is. Jack runs to Washington with his tail on fire. In an effort to make peace, Daniel encourages Sam's interest in the Colonel and Jack plays along, as the perfect gentleman officer and finds himself disturbingly unsatisfied. Teal'c and Daniel become closer than either expected, and a relationship blooms. Daniel is initially stunned, but decides to explore this chance. He shows up at Teal'c's all fired up to discuss it to death ....and Jack happens to walk in on a delicate moment. Now Jack realizes that he is jealous as hell, and that there's not a damn thing he can do about it from Washington. I think the story is clear enough from there, but if not, feel free to let me know. Eventually the years force them both to re-evaluate their choices.
Music by: The Veronicas - In Another Life
|Revelle||March 2010||Gen/Team, St. Patrick's Day Challenge||Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis||Revelle by Holdt||Summary: St Patricks Day 2010 Challenge for the Accommodating Daniel Closet. Crack!vid. Not beta'd, so my apologies for issues. (Didnt have much time for this one.)
Music by: Anonymous - Kemp's Jig
|So Happy||March 2010||(Jack/Daniel) Slash, MainChar!Death, Multiple!Death, Spoilers for Stargate Continuum||Stargate SG-1||So Happy by Holdt||Summary: For the Kawoosh! 2010 Are You Still Alive challenge.
Jack and Daniel are tied together across all dimensions, and are willing to give their lives for their principles, especially since every time, an endless eternity of every moment that ever was or will be, and all the quantum impressions of them that have ever been, await on the other side. Basically, this is a "hero factor" J/D vid where I defy the whole "Jack cant/wont ascend" trope. They think on each other as they were in life and reflect on the personality changes that made theirs a relationship of equals. Even at the worst, everything really is alright.
Music by: Lady Gaga - So Happy I Could Die
|Welcome to the (Ass-Kicking) Club||March 2010||Gen/Team, Season One Challenge||Stargate SG-1||Welcome to the AKC||Summary: For the Accommodating Daniel Closet (ADC) Jan 2010 Season One Challenge.
Music by: Manian - Welcome to the Club
|Our Time||Feb 2010||ensemble, NSFW 18+ for excessive brutality, violence, sensuality.||True Blood||Our Time by Holdt||Summary: Life and death in Bon Temps. Seasons 1 & 2 Overview.
Music by: Muse - Time is Running Out
|If I Had You||Feb 2010||(Jack/Daniel) VDaySlash, 18+ for Mature imagery, nudity, sexual content, homosexual content, shameless clip re-use||Stargate SG-1||If I Had You by Holdt||Summary: The boys keep watching each other, but who will make the first move?
For the (ADC) Accommodating Daniel Closet Feb prompt (licking/lickable "Shower Jack" by Deoneta) and Valentines Day Challenge. Unapologetic shmoop and sugary saturation. [:)] This vid may prompt visits to your dentist - you have been warned. Enjoy!
Music by: Adam Lambert - If I Had You
|The Old Me||Feb 2010||Character Study||Stargate SG-1, Stargate Movie||The Old Me by Holdt||Summary: Inspired by a lovely wall from Artifuss that she did for RDA's BD.
80% Jack/20% Daniel - Alpha-wolf and Omega-wolf, from the beginning. Best viewed in full-screen.
|Hymn||Feb 2010||preslash Jack/Daniel||Stargate the Movie||Hymn by Holdt||Summary: With representation like Ra, the Gould must want to lose.
Music by: Roger Waters - What God Wants
|Don't Ask||Jan 2010||(Jack/Daniel) Slash, 18+ for nudity, graphic sexual content, homosexual content (you have been warned!)||Stargate SG-1||Don't Ask by Holdt||Summary: After a particularly dangerous rescue, General Hammond confronts Jack and Daniel about the rumors circulating on-base...only to find that the rumors are true.
Jack, fearful for both his command and his pension, decides to toe the line and put as much space between them as possible. In response, Daniel makes plans to leave,and angered by Jacks coldness, tells him at an extremely inappropriate time. Jack does not respond well. Jack comes to visit at Daniel his new post as Civilian Consultant/Diplomat and though initially wary of more violence, Daniel agrees. Once he understands that Jack really came to make himself feel better, he reacts explosively.
Music by: Glasseater - Alone in the World
|Apology||Jan 2010||Het, 18+ for mature imagery, sexual content (not porn!), some nudity(if you saw the original COTG (Pilot) you wont be ruffled.||Stargate SG-1||Apology by Holdt||Summary: Haunted by memories of a perfect love gone terribly wrong, Daniel tries to move on with his life. Sadly, he's unable to shake nightmares of his past and so he begs Shar'e to release him from his guilt.
Finally, through realizing how little he actually wants to hurt Vala, Daniel is able to reconcile his new feelings and say goodbye. 1. Because Vala is awesome. 2. Because some day, he has to let go.
Music by: Alesana - Apology
|Responsible||Jan 2010||Gen/Team||Stargate SG-1||Responsible by Holdt||Summary: Who's really to blame for all the Gould and Ori attacks? Who opened "Pandora's box", and ultimately, who pays the price for hubris? A different perspective. This vid came as I was pondering some canon 'truths'...and I started wondering:
1) What if theyd never gone to Abydos in the 1st place...but some OTHER planet. Perhaps a friendly one?
2) If SG1 had never started a private war with Ra, would the System Lords have descended so terribly (and so immediately) upon the Taur'i? And thus this vid was born.
Music by: Ana Johnsson - We Are
|What If||Dec 2009||(Jack/Daniel)AU. Slash. Dark/Angst.||Stargate SG-1||What If by Holdt||Summary: Jack makes his choice, then changes his mind too late to stop a tragedy.
Music by: Coldplay - What If
|Trainer - In the Mouth of Madness||Dec 2009||Bad editing, Graphic freakiness, violence, minor gore.||In the Mouth of Madness (1994 Film), Sam Neill||Vegas 8 Trainer - ITMOM - Holdt||Summary: Short and a touch embarrassing, but here it is. My first steps in Vegas Pro 8.
Music by: Breaking Benjamin - Dance With the Devil
|Umbrella||Dec 2009||(Jack/Daniel) slash, learning vid||Stargate SG-1||Umbrella by Holdt||Summary: No plot. All emotion.
Music by: All Time Low - Umbrella
|Sleepwalker||Nov 2009||(Helen Magnus/Will Zimmerman) Kind of. Dark themes.||Sanctuary, Amanda Tapping||Sleepwalker by Holdt||Summary: Somewhat jumbled, unrequited love/psychotic obsession mix.
Music by: Adam Lambert - Sleepwalker
|Daniel's Nightmares||Nov 2009||Character Study. This was my very first vid, and you can tell.||Stargate SG-1, Michael Shanks||Daniel's Nightmares by Holdt||Summary: The effects of the constant violence at SGC on Daniel's psyche, and his eventual reaction to the stimuli.
Music by: 30 Seconds to Mars - Beautiful Lie
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