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I'm a FOC who loves writing, reading fic, scifi, fantasy and historical fantasy. I love strawberries, h/c, angst-ridden longfic, and slash.

Fannish History

I first got into fandom when I was 13, reading and writing K/S and S/McCoy fic. At the time I didn't know what 'fandom' was and didn't realize that there were so many others who had the same interests. In the intervening years, I've made many good and solid friendships and fallen into Stargate as my verse of choice. I've also fallen for an OTP (Jack/Daniel), vidded my heart out, written some fairly bad fic (not badfic, I hope!), recced every nugget of gold I came across, roleplayed and engaged in numerous online communities. I've been to two Cons as of yet (WisCon35 and Escapade 2013).

Co-Admin of 2009-ongoing Admin Staff of 2011-2014 Vidding Admin of Buffytube 2009-ongoing

For a complete list of my vids, visit (viable, but under construction 2016-2017)

Title Date Type/Warnings Fandom External Link Details
Brothers 2012 flashes, Vidding practicum, filial rivalry, royal inrigue, crack Thor (movies), MCU Brother by Holdt Summary: Kings get all the cool toys.

Music by: Beck & Kilian

I'll Lay You Down 2012 Jack/DanielWarnings: flashes, fast cuts, dubstep editing, NSFW Stargate SG-1 I'll Lay You Down by Holdt Summary: When the wars are over, we'll find our piece of Heaven.

Notes: Started out trying to redux Don't Ask (2009), realized that I didn't like anything about it except a few clips, so I mixed, clipped and added a pinch of spice. Music by: Adam Lambert

Underneath(Collab) 2012 Holdt & Darcy Jack/Daniel, Warnings: drama, reasons, ptsd Stargate SG-1 [ Underneath by darcy/holdt Summary: Jack isn't sure what Daniel sees when Daniel looks at him.

Music by: Adam Lambert

Knight of Wands 2012 Jack/Daniel, Daniel Jackson/Sha're, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Drama, Character Study: Daniel Jackson Stargate SG-1 Knight of Wands by Holdt Summary: Daniel lives in a perpetual no-man's land of struggle and self-proof. Sometimes the fiercest battles happen without a ripple's warning. Jack refuses to let him fight alone.

Music by: The Wanted

Estus immortalis October 2011 Halloween Vid, Focus: Werewolves in popular media, 18+ for gore, brutal violence Multifandom [1] Summary: Exploring the traditional werewolf mythos. Made for Halloween 2011

Music by: Gerard McMann aka G Tom Mac

Retro Active 2011 80s Challenge, Warnings: violence against women, violence by women, some flashes, fast paced, cracky Red Sonja (1985) Retro Active by holdt Summary: Vengeance is a dish best served with crack.

Music by: Gap Band (1982)

In Shadow (Collab) 2011 - Darcy & Holdt Graphic Depictions Of Violence,Jack/Daniel, Secret Relationship, DADT Repeal, Dark, Closeted Character Stargate SG-1 In Shadow by holdt & darcy Summary: There's a part of Jack that he never wanted Daniel to know.

Music by: Delain

Oedipal 2011 Character Focus/POV: William - Warnings: fast moving BTVS Oedipal by holdt Summary: "Mockery is a rust that corrodes all it touches." - Milan Kundera

Music by: Lady Gaga

Love's Dream 2011 Made for the 2011 COA Outside the Norm Challenge, het, schmaltzy, flashes, Bangel BTVS, AtS Love's Dream by holdt Summary: In a dimension parallel to what is, what could be lives on.

Music by: Kevin MacLeod

Fandom Mine (Trailer) 2011 Fandom Trailer Challenge, Stargate SG-1 Fandom Mine by Holdt Summary: "Meaning of Life stuff."

Music by: The XX

Transference (Collab) 2011 - Holdt & Buefo Jack/Daniel, '''Trigger warnings''': 18+ warning, NSFW/NC17 for graphic content, bad BDSM, dubious consent/non-con, mind-control/viral contagion, unsafe & insane, dark, Stargate SG-1 Transference by Buefo & Holdt Summary: (AMTDI) Jack has been exposed to/possessed by a dangerously self-aware, contagious virus. The organism or virus is enacting Jack's own darkest fantasies, bringing his inner-self to the fore with no regard for inhibitions, taboos or cultural context. Jack's most hidden feral side wants, so the organism bypasses all that lovely military Ops discipline and takes. It's almost as if Jack's Id has bypassed his superego entirely. This once, the team doesn't manage to save him in time

Music by: Nine Inch Nails

Collision 2011 McShep, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, John/Rodney, stutter-cuts, fast moving, angst, dark SGA Collision by Holdt Summary: "But break, my heart, for I must hold my tongue." ~Hamlet, scene ii

Music by: AFI

Let Me Stay 2011 Dedicated to pinkdiamonds Jack/Daniel, Grief, Canonical Character Death, Meridian, Whump Stargate SG-1 Let Me Stay by Holdt Summary: Jack's never been good at letting go.

Music by: Jorma Kaukonen

Wicked (Collab) 2011 - Holdt & Darcy Jack/Daniel, Surreal, Hallucinations, UST, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Mature imagery Stargate SG-1 Wicked by Holdt& Darcy Summary: Jack doesn't want to fall in love.

Music by: Chris Isaak

Double Deal 2011 - Dedicated to Jdjunkie Jack/Daniel, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Self-Sacrifice, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Established Relationship Stargate SG-1 Double Deal by Holdt Summary: If I only could, I'd make a deal with God, and get Him to swap our places.

Music by: Placebo

Slipping 2011 Jack-Sarah, Daniel-Share, Angst, Pre-Relationship, Grief, Pre-Slash Death References Stargate SG-1 Slipping by Holdt Summary: "How can I hold on, with nothing to hold onto?"

Music by: Stabbing Westward

Solar 2011 Sam Carter/Joe Faxon, Jack/Daniel, Comedy, Beatwork exercise, Plot Arc - Time Travel Stargate SG-1 Solar by Holdt Summary: 365 days of a year; runnin' around, runnin' round and going nowhere...

Music by: Aura Dione

Run Away 2011 Jack/Daniel, Angst, Romance, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Mature imagery Stargate SG-1, Stargate Continuum Run Away by Holdt Summary: For years they've been running. Now it's time to stop.

Music by: Leona Lewis

Subterfuge 2011 Character Study: Daniel Jackson Stargate SG-1 Subterfuge by Holdt Summary: Daniel grows disillusioned with his role as Higher Plane errand-boy.

Music by: Halestorm - Dirty Work

Unanswered 2011 Jack/Daniel, Angst, Ascension, Unreliable Memories, canon-typical trauma Stargate SG-1 Unanswered by Holdt Summary: Daniel can't trust his own memories. (Post-Fallen)

Music by: Devil Wears Prada/cover by mmhmmeric of Youtube

Other 2010 Character Study: Teal'c, Drey'auc/Teal'c, Rya'c, flashes, Characters of Color, Chromatic Character, Ethics, War Crimes, Post-War Stargate SG-1, SGA Other by Holdt Summary: Teal'c - integral, necessary and all too often ignored. He is truly a man alone, more so than any other character on SG, given his alien status, birth, upbringing/culture and his choice to rebel in a society that does not tolerate rebellion.

Music by: Gavin DeGraw

Do You 2010 Trinity/Neo, het, flashing lights, fast-paced, meta-crack Matrix Trilogy] Do You by Holdt Summary: What or who is Neo really fighting for? Trinity isn't sure, but she and Neo have to figure it out.

Music by: The Guild

Something Else 2010 Study: S.T.O. and Sister Clarice Willow Caprica Something Else by Holdt Summary: This is how it falls apart.

Notes: This vid stems from my unease at the main story arc of Caprica, and my views on the socio-political environment of the show and any organization that employs such extremist/anarchist values. Here is how it all leads to the extremist idealogy becoming ingrained in the Cylon's programming, and how that programming becomes the true seed of the Cylon/Human War of Battlestar Galactica. Music by: Halestorm

Still Waters November 2010 Character Study: Daniel Jackson, mainstream blip, naughty wordbits, angry vidder vibes, hip-hop stylism, flashy flashes Stargate SG-1 Still Waters by Holdt Summary: Daniel hates Apophis' effin' guts (for those who didn't know).

Music by: Eminem - Go to Sleep

Breathe You In November 2010 Jack/Daniel, steaminess/sensuality, men being sweet on each other, mature content, angst, some dickery Stargate SG-1 [ Breathe You In by Holdt] Summary: Jack is more disturbed than he lets on about how Daniel always seems to find admirers in the worst situations, and in the middle of a conversation he finds he cant hold his tongue. He lashes out, despite the fact that this time, Daniel was under the influence of an alien device.

Daniel tries to explain, but Jack doesn't want to hear any more excuses - his pride and his fear that he's is too old /Daniel doesn't really want him choke any kindness down. They separate, Daniel moves back into his old apartment, and in day to day life, they try to act as though nothing is amiss. However, neither can stop thinking of the other, or of how desperately they miss each other, and their thoughts always go to the one time they were able to take advantage of downtime to actually be together. Watch for the rest!

Music by: Halestorm - Familiar Taste of Poison

Hide & Seek November 2010 Jack/Daniel,crack, slash, more crack, actual jungle fever and even more crack.Also, manly parts moving in tandem. Stargate SG-1 Hide & Seek by Holdt Summary: During downtime, Daniel gets bored. Jack always has the cure for what ails him.

Music by: AASMA - Ghoomi Hai Humne Sari Duniya

Khef, Ka & Ka-tet November 2010 My tribute to Stephen King's Dark Tower series. Dark Tower Series (Books & Graphic Novels) Khef, Ka & Ka-tet by Holdt Notes: I'd also like to acknowledge and thank:

Universal Artists,FOX Networks, Embassy Television, Illustrators Michael Whelan, Phil Hale, Ned Dameron, Dave McKean, Bernie Wrightson, Darrel Anderson and of course, Stephen King, for 30 years of thrills, chills and tears.

Music by: Coldplay - Lost

Errata October 2010 Mature imagery. 18+ for violence, partial nudity, gore, sexual situations and mature content, feline homicide and general freakiness Splice Errata by Holdt Summary: Dren isn't the only one with issues.

Music by: Linkin Park and X-Ray Dog

Turn Me On October 2010 Booty shakin' and crazy makin'. Glee Turn Me On by Holdt Summary: Sometimes you gotta go with the flow. Made for Chosen One Awards 2010 Born to Vid Challenge, Winner: Most Creative

Music by: K.C. & The Sunshine Band - That's the Way I Like It

Jack is The Man October 2010 Character Study/Tribute: Colonel Jack O'Neill. Stargate SG-1 Jack is The Man by Holdt Summary: Jack O'Neill's Birthday is October 20th. Made for the AccDanCloset 2010 Jack's Birthday Challenge.

Music by: Immediate Music

Into the Light October 2010 Hijinks, hard-knocks and the meaning of moral superiority Starman (1984) Into the Light by Holdt Summary: "You're welcome" is rarely literal.

Story: When trapped in hostile territory and surrounded by primitives, the high road is a difficult one to take.

Music by: Katy Perry - E.T. - (Futuristic Lover)

Goddess of Battle September 2010 Character Study of Sam Carter Stargate SG-1 Stargate: Atlantis Goddess of Battle by Holdt Summary: It's all about Choice.

Music by: Metric - Blindness

Wrong Feels Right September 2010 Character Study of Bill Compton, violence, blood, nasty!bad vamp stuf, explicit and implied domestic abuse - this vid is a mature situation True Blood Wrong Feels Right by Holdt Summary: subtitled: WTF is wrong with Bill. Some things can turn even a good man bad.

Music by: Eminem & Rihanna - Love the Way you Lie

I Wanna Marry an Archaeologist September 2010 Jack/Daniel, Crack, Fluff, puppies an mostly rainbows. Stargate SG-1 I Wanna Marry an Archaeologist by Holdt Summary: Don't buy the meek explorer act. Someone thinks nerds are hot, and our favorite archaeologist has them wrapped tight around his finger. ;)

Music by: Chris Braymen - Archaeologist Song from Laura Bow II

Fruit Loopy August 2010 sophomoric comedy, concussive dependence, massively alarming quantities of breakfast cereal.You have been warned. Stargate SG-1 Fruit Loopy by Holdt Summary: Funvid, because I needed it. A comedic look at episode 4x06 - Window of Opportunity. Enjoy!

Music by: Bloodhound Gang - Legend in My Spare Time

Black Skies July 2010 moderate violence, spoilers for Prince of Persia: Sands of Time Prince of Persia Black Skies by Holdt Summary: A foolhardy man has only himself to blame for his woes. It takes a reason to turn a foolhardy man into a great man. Dustan has many Reasons.

Story: Dustan jumps into action with no thought of how those actions will affect those he loves. When everything dear to him is taken, he fights to understand whats happened, and turns back the clock to stop his own madness.

Music by: Linkin Park - New Divide

Lifeboat - Beneath June 2010 Episodic Synopsis of SG-1 7x06 Lifeboat Stargate SG-1 Lifeboat - Beneath by Holdt Summary: Episodic Overview, Focus on Daniel Jackson

Music by: Linkin Park - Papercut

Mad Shit June 2010 Humor, (Chaka/Daniel), also interspecies slash and general crackiness. Stargate SG-1 Mad Shit by Holdt Summary: Humans invade an Unas world with no regard for their prior claim. Chaka captures Daniel as a P.O.W. and decides to keep him "indefinitely" for specific purposes. Although the rest of SG-1 searches for their lost team-mate, they are unable to recover Daniel.

Daniel fights but eventually develops Stockholm syndrome, and begins to invite the advances of Chaka. Eventually, a dialogue begins and Chaka starts to trust Daniel's loyalties. With his help, the Unas recover their world from hostile humans, and Chaka releases Daniel from his service.

Music by: 3OH!3 - Punk Bitch

Apex May 2010 Challenge vid, Pop music, strobe lights, may cause an uninhibited desire to dance wildly Battlestar Galactica (2003) Apex by Holdt Summary: Deja vu. A study of survival - from the Cylon perspective.

Music by: Adam Lambert - For Your Entertainment

BITE: The Big One May 2010 Challenge vid, 18+ for gore, violence, extreme vampirism, sexual situations, sexual content, suggestive lyrics and dark everything Multifandom, Vampires BITE: The Big One by Holdt Summary: These are a few of my favorite things.

Music by: Lady Gaga - Teeth

Gunn - Punitive Damages May 2010 Challenge vid, Character Study, mid-level violence, death, mature themes Angel the Series Gunn - Punitive Damages by Holdt Summary: "Any life, no matter how long and complex it may be, is made up of a single moment - the moment in which a man finds out, once and for all, who he is." --Jorge Luis Borges

Music by: Brand New - Degausser Promo May 2010 Promotional vid Vidding Promo by Holdt Summary: A change is coming.

Music by: Christina Aguilera - Dynamite

Dude April 2010 Slash, (Jack/Daniel), Extreme language, angst, inappropriate humor Stargate SG-1 Dude by Holdt Summary: Wherein Jack expresses his most heartfelt feelings for the loss of Daniel

... in the most infuriatingly obtuse manner I could come up with.

Music by: Tenacious D - Dude

Only You March 2010 Slash, (Mal/Simon), series-specific violence, alpha/dom!Mal, sub!Simon, dominance/submission, mature imagery Firefly/Serenity Only You by Holdt Story: Even in the darkness, sometimes the path is clear.
Summary: From River's POV, as she senses it all but is powerless to explain her understanding. Simon wonders why he can't stay away from Mal. Mal wonders why he can't resist Simon's looks even though he knows the boy is trouble. They'll do anything to touch... anything. What they have is the brightest spark they can hold on to. River gets in the way despite herself. In the end, Mal decides that if River's issues are the only price he has to pay to be with Simon, then Simon's worth it.

Music by: Stabbing Westward - You Complete Me

In Another Life March 2010 Slash, (Jack/Daniel), (Daniel/Teal'c), (Jack/Sam) Stargate SG-1 In Another Life by Holdt Summary: This is a shamelessly illogical AU. Daniel expresses his interest in Jack through a series of flashbacks where Jack constantly tells him how it would never work out and insists that he's straight as an arrow.

Since DADT doesn't apply to civilian consultants (or Jaffa allies), Daniel decides to cut his losses and move on, being the survivor he is. Jack runs to Washington with his tail on fire. In an effort to make peace, Daniel encourages Sam's interest in the Colonel and Jack plays along, as the perfect gentleman officer and finds himself disturbingly unsatisfied. Teal'c and Daniel become closer than either expected, and a relationship blooms. Daniel is initially stunned, but decides to explore this chance. He shows up at Teal'c's all fired up to discuss it to death ....and Jack happens to walk in on a delicate moment. Now Jack realizes that he is jealous as hell, and that there's not a damn thing he can do about it from Washington. I think the story is clear enough from there, but if not, feel free to let me know. Eventually the years force them both to re-evaluate their choices.

Music by: The Veronicas - In Another Life

Revelle March 2010 Gen/Team, St. Patrick's Day Challenge Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis Revelle by Holdt Summary: St Patricks Day 2010 Challenge for the Accommodating Daniel Closet. Crack!vid. Not beta'd, so my apologies for issues. (Didnt have much time for this one.)

Music by: Anonymous - Kemp's Jig

So Happy March 2010 (Jack/Daniel) Slash, MainChar!Death, Multiple!Death, Spoilers for Stargate Continuum Stargate SG-1 So Happy by Holdt Summary: For the Kawoosh! 2010 Are You Still Alive challenge.

Jack and Daniel are tied together across all dimensions, and are willing to give their lives for their principles, especially since every time, an endless eternity of every moment that ever was or will be, and all the quantum impressions of them that have ever been, await on the other side. Basically, this is a "hero factor" J/D vid where I defy the whole "Jack cant/wont ascend" trope. They think on each other as they were in life and reflect on the personality changes that made theirs a relationship of equals. Even at the worst, everything really is alright.

Music by: Lady Gaga - So Happy I Could Die

Welcome to the (Ass-Kicking) Club March 2010 Gen/Team, Season One Challenge Stargate SG-1 Welcome to the AKC Summary: For the Accommodating Daniel Closet (ADC) Jan 2010 Season One Challenge.

Music by: Manian - Welcome to the Club

Our Time Feb 2010 ensemble, NSFW 18+ for excessive brutality, violence, sensuality. True Blood Our Time by Holdt Summary: Life and death in Bon Temps. Seasons 1 & 2 Overview.

Music by: Muse - Time is Running Out

If I Had You Feb 2010 (Jack/Daniel) VDaySlash, 18+ for Mature imagery, nudity, sexual content, homosexual content, shameless clip re-use Stargate SG-1 If I Had You by Holdt Summary: The boys keep watching each other, but who will make the first move?

For the (ADC) Accommodating Daniel Closet Feb prompt (licking/lickable "Shower Jack" by Deoneta) and Valentines Day Challenge. Unapologetic shmoop and sugary saturation. [:)] This vid may prompt visits to your dentist - you have been warned. Enjoy!

Music by: Adam Lambert - If I Had You

The Old Me Feb 2010 Character Study Stargate SG-1, Stargate Movie The Old Me by Holdt Summary: Inspired by a lovely wall from Artifuss that she did for RDA's BD.

80% Jack/20% Daniel - Alpha-wolf and Omega-wolf, from the beginning. Best viewed in full-screen.

Music by: Timberlake/T.I. - Dead and Gone

Hymn Feb 2010 preslash Jack/Daniel Stargate the Movie Hymn by Holdt Summary: With representation like Ra, the Gould must want to lose.

Music by: Roger Waters - What God Wants

Don't Ask Jan 2010 (Jack/Daniel) Slash, 18+ for nudity, graphic sexual content, homosexual content (you have been warned!) Stargate SG-1 Don't Ask by Holdt Summary: After a particularly dangerous rescue, General Hammond confronts Jack and Daniel about the rumors circulating on-base...only to find that the rumors are true.

Jack, fearful for both his command and his pension, decides to toe the line and put as much space between them as possible. In response, Daniel makes plans to leave,and angered by Jacks coldness, tells him at an extremely inappropriate time. Jack does not respond well. Jack comes to visit at Daniel his new post as Civilian Consultant/Diplomat and though initially wary of more violence, Daniel agrees. Once he understands that Jack really came to make himself feel better, he reacts explosively.

Music by: Glasseater - Alone in the World

Apology Jan 2010 Het, 18+ for mature imagery, sexual content (not porn!), some nudity(if you saw the original COTG (Pilot) you wont be ruffled.

(Daniel/Sha're), (Daniel/Vala)

Stargate SG-1 Apology by Holdt Summary: Haunted by memories of a perfect love gone terribly wrong, Daniel tries to move on with his life. Sadly, he's unable to shake nightmares of his past and so he begs Shar'e to release him from his guilt.

Finally, through realizing how little he actually wants to hurt Vala, Daniel is able to reconcile his new feelings and say goodbye. 1. Because Vala is awesome. 2. Because some day, he has to let go.

Music by: Alesana - Apology

Responsible Jan 2010 Gen/Team Stargate SG-1 Responsible by Holdt Summary: Who's really to blame for all the Gould and Ori attacks? Who opened "Pandora's box", and ultimately, who pays the price for hubris? A different perspective. This vid came as I was pondering some canon 'truths'...and I started wondering:

1) What if theyd never gone to Abydos in the 1st place...but some OTHER planet. Perhaps a friendly one?

2) If SG1 had never started a private war with Ra, would the System Lords have descended so terribly (and so immediately) upon the Taur'i? And thus this vid was born.

Music by: Ana Johnsson - We Are

What If Dec 2009 (Jack/Daniel)AU. Slash. Dark/Angst. Stargate SG-1 What If by Holdt Summary: Jack makes his choice, then changes his mind too late to stop a tragedy.

Music by: Coldplay - What If

Trainer - In the Mouth of Madness Dec 2009 Bad editing, Graphic freakiness, violence, minor gore. In the Mouth of Madness (1994 Film), Sam Neill Vegas 8 Trainer - ITMOM - Holdt Summary: Short and a touch embarrassing, but here it is. My first steps in Vegas Pro 8.

Music by: Breaking Benjamin - Dance With the Devil

Umbrella Dec 2009 (Jack/Daniel) slash, learning vid Stargate SG-1 Umbrella by Holdt Summary: No plot. All emotion.

Music by: All Time Low - Umbrella

Sleepwalker Nov 2009 (Helen Magnus/Will Zimmerman) Kind of. Dark themes. Sanctuary, Amanda Tapping Sleepwalker by Holdt Summary: Somewhat jumbled, unrequited love/psychotic obsession mix.

Music by: Adam Lambert - Sleepwalker

Daniel's Nightmares Nov 2009 Character Study. This was my very first vid, and you can tell. Stargate SG-1, Michael Shanks Daniel's Nightmares by Holdt Summary: The effects of the constant violence at SGC on Daniel's psyche, and his eventual reaction to the stimuli.

Music by: 30 Seconds to Mars - Beautiful Lie

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