|Synonyms:||pass-around, closet fic, underground story, privately circulated, shelf paper, dresser drawer lit|
|See also:||Badfic, Idfic, Circuit Story|
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Drawerfic is fan fiction that is never shown to other fans, or that is only shown to a few friends (and then it may be also called a "pass-around" or "underground story").
Drawerfic is rarely later posted online or published in a zine.
The term refers to the idea of "keeping stories in your desk drawer."
Sometime in the 2000s, a zine ed asked for submissions and mentioned the hidden stash she figured many fans had: "Here’s your chance. I know nearly all of you have a story hiding somewhere at the back of your desk drawer, in your computer files, under your bed... that you’ve only shown your closest friends."
It is usually understood that drawerfic was written primarily because it appealed to the author; the author themself recognizes that its audience is narrow, and the quality may not be high. Some drawerfic, however, is written by highly accomplished authors and isn't publicly published for other reasons.
Why So Much K/S Drawerfic?
Many people wrote "drawer fic." K/S was the first slash to make it to publication in part because there was so much of it. K/S was independently discovered thousands of times, so was much more likely to make it all the way to publication than slash that was only discovered once.
Obviously, I am very excited about 'A Distant Shore', the novel that we finished the draft of last summer. We actually have written a number of novel-length manuscripts, but this one really feels right. I'm afraid that a lot of our best work was only ever shared with close friends and family. In the universe we called 'Luminous Times', the first novel, 'A Sort of Homecoming', will always be one of my favorite works.
In 1980, a fan said:
Shelf paper, or dresser drawer lit or closet fiction, is that stuff written purely for its thrill, shared with your best friend, and then hidden under a stack of zines.
As for the Dirty/Davis thing, since it's private and goes only to people who know what it is and want to read it, it's not open to review—and it's free of pretensions; the authors are writing simply for the fun of it...kind of like all the erotic Trek stuff was until the zines started publishing and the debates began.
In 1984, a fan explained that true drawerfic was only for yourself:
Unless you write and hide everything in a drawer, you are not writing for yourself and thus you are writing to communicate. Those they say that they are just writing for themselves and then hand their work to even one person else are not being honest -- they are trying to communicate what they think, even if it is only to one person.
In 2006, one fan had a different term:
Epics That Must Not Be Read (Term borrowed from the only other person I know for sure has written one of these. She will not be named here - unless she just wants to be - out of mercy for her.) Another thing I do is write these long, involved pieces of FF that are only for an audience of one, and that one person is me. They're always AUs of some kind, and they always start in canon and move sharply away from it, and they always entertain the hell out of me. But only me.
The Prevalence of the Private
In 1981, a fan speculated on the maturing nature of Starsky/Hutch fiction. In 1981, the only slash zine that had been published was Forever Autumn, yet it was clear that many fans had already read a lot in this genre:
Romps in the sack are nifty, but as we seem to agree, they become tedious when they remain the focus of a genre. In S/H writing, though, I see a shift away from the graphic aspects of their sexuality.... more and more I’m seeing S/H stories without graphic sex. The emphasis seems to be fast becoming a serious effort to document a love-relationship, and not just an exercise in how many clinches can be fit into a ten-page story. Instead of closing off fan fiction, S/H seems to be opening up a lot of new areas of exploration. 
Before the Internet
In 1985, a Starsky & Hutch fan explained:
The Black Notebook, by the way, is the big black three-ring binder, or expandable manila folder, or large cardboard box, in which are kept the early drafts, critique galleys, or complimentary copies of a fan's own or someone else's unpublished stories. The Black Notebook is an artifact of the second period of the fan literature, late 1980 to 1982, the hush-hush period. Not til The Professionals emerged was there a fandom with as many unpublished or downright subterranean stories about. There were secret series, secret round-robins, even a secret letterzine  for a while in 1981. Most of this underground stuff was S/H, and the reason that it was so encrypted was the fear and occasional paranoia that Spelling-Goldberg would sue the writers. Hence "The Zine With No Name"; CODE 7 1. There are no editors, no artists, no writers credited in this 1981 publication. Other stories remained buried because their authors gafiated before they were finished. From time to time some incanabula surface, but sadly, most may molder away, in obscurity, forever. 
Examples of Some Drawerfic
- The Ring of Soshern, written in late 1967 or early 1968 by Jennifer Guttridge. It is the first known narrative to describe a slash relationship between James Kirk and Cmdr. Spock in Star Trek: The Original Series. Intended as a pass-around only, Guttridge did not learn of its publication in the 1987 fanzine Alien Brothers until decades later.
- A Wee Bit O' Scotch, a 1969 drawerfic that was later published in a zine
- And the Stars Shall Weep, a 1976 Star Trek: TOS fic
- Mirror Conspiracy, a 1977 Star Trek: TOS slash Mirrorverse fic
- When Universes Collide, a 1978 Star Trek: TOS parody
- Purple Banana Underground Stories, an early example of RPS
- The Brass Bed, pre-1982, a S/H story
- Green Plague, an extremely early pass-around K/S story
- "Continuity Theory" was a 1974 K/S story outline by Mary Manchester 
- pretty much all RPS in the 1970s and 1980s
- Moon Silver, the 1980 Star Wars story that was part of the beginning of the controversy that circled around the Open Letter to Star Wars Zine Publishers by Maureen Garrett
- Time Lord from UNCLE: The Grandfather’s Death Affair
- The Literate Dinosaur from 1989 or before, a Starsky & Hutch gen fic.
- and obviously, many, many fics that have been lost to the mists of time...
- MKASHEF Enterprises
- "Fern Marder and Carol Walske - Fandom Writers on Renderosity". Archived from the original on 2012-12-08.
- from the S and H letterzine for Starsky & Hutch, #12
- from the S and H letterzine for Starsky & Hutch, #19
- from K/S & K.S. (Kindred Spirits) #8
- Poll: Consensus, Part One, dated Oct 22, 2006; Poll #851020 Results.
- from an issue of S and H #23
- perhaps a reference to The Purple Pages
- from Paula Smith in The Paul Muni Special program book
- see A 1980 Interview with Leslie Fish