House of Cards Interview with sugamins

Interviews by Fans
Title:	Interview with sugamins about her work House of Cards (Ao3′s second most hit English work and most hit BTS work)
Interviewer:	Charmedseoul
Interviewee:	sugamins
Date(s):	September 23, 2020 - October 25, 2020
Medium:	online, email
Fandom(s):	BTS
External Links:	Tumblr transcript, Reddit Transcript Part 1, Reddit Transcript Part 2, Ao3 Transcript
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Over email, sugamins was interviewed as a part of Charmedseoul's Top 50 Most Hit BTS Fanfics on Archive of Our Own (T50BTSFF) project. The interview delves into the mind behind Archive of Our Own's most hit BTS work, second most hit English work, and 16th most hit work overall.

The interview opens by asking questions about sugamins' ARMY and fanfiction writing experience. She talks about her literary inspirations and the specific thought processes behind her work.

She explains her reason for orphaning and cancelling the sequel to House of Cards.

Additionally, she gives some advice on dark fanfiction to other writers.

The interview closes with sugamins leaving a message for readers.

Excerpts

In terms of inspirations for House of Cards, I was obviously inspired by the films Infernal Affairs/The Departed. American Gangster and Training Day were also major inspirations (and also because I love Denzel Washington’s performances in both films. I mean, who doesn’t love him?) But I also drew inspiration from other sources that were less focused on gangs, more focused on the dark, nihilistic state of the world around us. I couldn’t recommend the TV series True Detective hard enough. It is one of the best series I have ever watched. It handles dark and disturbing content so well, and its fractured, unreliable story-telling and philosophical musing is some of the best I’ve ever seen on screen. I highly recommend checking it out, but be sure to check the content warning and triggers because it certainly isn’t suitable for younger audiences and those with triggers. In terms of real-life content, I think Ross Kemps’ docu-series are very good. Particularly Extreme World and On Gangs. His docu-series show the dark and disturbing side of criminal activity, the drug trade and more.

My experience being a fan has mostly been positive over the years. In the earlier days, back around when I first started writing for the fandom, it was certainly much more positive. I’ve received so much support over the years, not only in my writing but in my personal life from readers and fellow fans that being a fan of the boys (The members of BTS) really has changed my life. That’s not an exaggeration. I doubt I would even be here now without those years having such a positive effect on my mental health. I’ve never really been the kind to interact with others and form cliques within the fandom, I just like being in my own space and interacting with everyone that comes my way, I guess? These days, I’m not as active as a writer or in fandom spaces however. I feel like my time in the fandom has started to come up and I don’t know how I feel about it just yet. I feel nostalgic for the time when I was first starting out in the fandom and I didn’t really know much, but everything was fun. It doesn’t feel so fun now, but I mostly contribute that to the effect that Twitter has had on shaping the fandom’s growth. Twitter has never been a good place for creatives within fandoms because of issues with algorithms and such. Tumblr was always the better website for hosting artistic content for a variety of reasons. So, I think the fact that everything is on Twitter now has been partly responsible for my decline in engagement and overall enjoyment. I’m currently taking a break from Twitter. The next couple of months will be what makes me either stay or leave the fandom.

When I started writing House of Cards, I would have just turned 22. It was inspired by the song ’Wires’ by The Neighbourhood. I might be mistaken, but I believe that Jungkook (BTS Jungkook/Jeon Jungkook) posted a tweet with the song in it. (Jungkook did tweet about this song. A link to an English translation is in the tracripts) I had never heard of the band before, but my partner was a fan of their music. She sent the song to me and I was very interested in the lyrics, so I started discussing them with her. One thing led to the next, and then we had basically come up with the entire plot of the story. We just needed to create the characters. We spent a little while doing so, and then I started doing some research and started writing the story. There really isn’t a grand backstory to House of Cards, it just happened so fast. We often come up with story ideas like that, and my partner is responsible for a huge amount of my stories. She has the creative visions, which I then turn into words. We make quite the team, haha~

When writing serious subject matter, I’m surprised to admit that I was never shocked by what I was writing! I guess it’s because I already knew that I was going to be handling dark themes. I wouldn’t have tackled such subjects had I not felt comfortable doing so. Dark content isn’t for everyone, and by that I don’t simply mean consuming it. Creating it can be very difficult for some writers, and can even cause distress. It’s not easy diving into a world that is filled with crime, pain and fear. It’s even harder putting yourself into the shoes of a character that is suffering/has suffered. I was never writing in a desensitised state though. Far from it. I’m actually very sensitive to violence in reality. In fiction, it depends on the violence—but I’m usually not too affected by it. I’ve been a fan of horror since I was a child, and so I’ve seen a lot of nasty films filled with gore and 'shocking’ deaths that never really had much of an effect on me. Unrealistic violence doesn’t scare me. But when it comes to personal violence, that is always frightening to me. It’s far scarier writing a scene where a character feels threatened by another character and doesn’t know what is going to happen to them then, say, writing a scene of a character dying a bloody, ridiculous death in a horror story. Personal violence is much more realistic, therefore it is more unsettling to write. In House of Cards, the violence is very personal. It’s in your face, it’s inescapable for the characters that are involved in it. But at no point did I ever feel like I needed to stop writing because I was uncomfortable or scared by the content. If I had been uncomfortable, it would have been very reckless of me to continue writing the story. My word of advice to fellow dark content writers: it’s always important to recognise your own boundaries. There’s nothing wrong with removing dark content from a story if you get a bad vibe or feel strange when writing/reviewing it. Always follow your gut instincts and never put out work that you don’t like.

I do think it is strange that fan fiction writers are placed on these ridiculously high pedestals of moral absolutism. Fan fiction was created to be a space for creative outlet for marginalised individuals, particularly queer individuals. The heavy censorship of dark and unusual content is putting this entire ethos at danger. I understand not wanting to have certain topics included in stories because there is a risk that the content can be used for grooming or can be presented in a way that can negatively affect young consumers’ perceptions (like pedophilia for example.) I certainly agree that there needs to be boundaries in place to stop the community from being flooded with such illegal content. But I think there is a difference between wanting to remove dangerous content, and wanting to get rid of content you do not like. Content can be problematic to you, but that does not make it dangerous, illegal, or bad. For some readers, the content they create is their way of dealing with trauma. Maybe this is not healthy for them. But that is their decision to make, not yours. I orphaned the story because I did not want to handle the potential backlash. To put it simply, I do not handle negative criticism well. Not because I am stuck-up and think I am perfect, but because I am a very anxious person. Just reading angry comments makes me feel very uncomfortable, often nauseous. I know that House of Cards has received overwhelmingly positive feedback from readers, and for that I am thankful. But I had to distance myself for the sake of my own mental health. Since orphaning it, it exploded in popularity. I am thankful that I orphaned it because that amount of attention would frighten me a lot, haha~

I’m in shock that it is one of the most read stories on AO3. I don’t think I will ever be able to create another story that will garner that kind of attention and feedback. It’s a once in a lifetime thing, so I’m immensely proud of myself for achieving such a feat. But really, it’s all because of the readers that it achieved such a goal. I’m so thankful for every single one of them.

I just want it to be remembered for being enjoyable, I think. I don’t have any grand and lofty ambitions for the story. I think so long as the readers enjoyed it, that is all that matters.

I’m not sure what I would like readers to take away from House of Cards. I guess I want them to reflect on the idea of morality and that not everything is black-and-white. Good people can do bad things, and bad things can happen to good people. It’s hard to answer this question because House of Cards isn’t a story that I consider to have deep messages in it? There are no messages about acceptance and love and healthy relationships and such, like some of my other stories.

The message that I would like to share with readers of this interview is: stay healthy, stay happy, and most importantly, stay you. I also want to take this moment to tell them this - if you are considering becoming a creator, but you are worried about reception to your work, or that it might not be good enough, stop right now! Stop doubting yourself and just give it a shot! I was once like you, scared that my weird and niche interests and writing would be ignored or even mocked by the fandom because no one would like it. Had I not decided to take the plunge, my life would be so drastically different. I’ve made so many friends, fallen in love, and completely changed my life by creating fan content. It can be scary, but once you take the leap, you will find your feet coming down on solid earth without any danger.