Still Waters (Star Trek: TOS story by Alexis Fegan Black)

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Fanfiction
Title:	Still Waters
Author(s):	Alexis Fegan Black
Date(s):	1986
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Genre(s):	slash
Fandom(s):	Star Trek: TOS
Relationship(s):	Kirk/Spock
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Still Waters is a Kirk/Spock story by Alexis Fegan Black.

It was published in the print zine First Time #7.

Summary

"About to leave Vulcan after the Koonakalifee, Kirk learns that Spock is to bond with another Vulcan woman once they return from the Altair ceremony."

Reactions and Reviews

1996

A terrific beginning as Spock tells Kirk:" 'I have been matched to T'Sheir.'" This pronouncement sets up an involving and emotional story that takes place right after the events in "Amok Time".

Spock's fever remains unabated by his fight with Kirk and he wants to return to Vulcan after the Enterprise visits Altair.

Kirk talks with Spock but neither of them can reveal their true feelings for each other.

I loved the repetition of the phrase "Spock deserved more than a logical fuck." The phrase is expressed differently each time.

A wonderful moment was when Kirk is on the bridge and he wants to stroll casually over to the science station like he usually does, but this time he can't. Equally wonderful was how Kirk leaves the door of his quarters unlocked at night in the hope that Spock will come in.

But even though I understood that Spock was in the fever, the eventual sex is pretty sudden. They talk a bit, then the next moment just about, Spock is penetrating Kirk.

But I adored how while they are making love: 'Their eyes did not close. They had no reason to hide in the darkness now."

1998

"I have been matched to T'Sheir." Thrown right into the middle of things, it surely got my attention. Kirk is angry and he doesn't know why. He doesn't understand why he reacts the way he does and he is afraid to look too deep. It isn't until they have that conversation in Spock's cabin that he realizes the why of his reactions. That process of accepting what Spock is to him is brought so matter of factly, that it is finished before you really know it. Nothing more is needed at that point, everything else would be a repetition. There is a feeling of heaviness to this story. Not heavy as in not moving along or dragging your feet, but a vast, deep sea of emotion just lying in wait to be explored and simultaneously, almost a burnout as if you lack the energy to even lift your eyelashes. A vast unstoppable movement, slow but inevitable. No great rhetoric to persuade Spock from his path—just "I want you to do what you want to do"—leaving Spock free to choose his own future, with or without Kirk. Their coming together is just right. Not your run-of-the-mill story.