With Others' Hands
|Title:||With Others' Hands|
|Fandom:||Star Trek: The Original Series|
|External Links:||online at AO3|
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It was published in the print zine T'hy'la #23 and is online.
Reactions and Reviews
I don't think I've ever read a K/S story quite like this before. Kirk starts feeling phantom hands on him at the most inopportune times — once while making love, once while kissing a woman, and then finally on the bridge of the Enterprise during the infamous back rub. I loved this explanation of why Kirk thought Spock was giving him a back rub in the Shore Leave episode — after all, Spock's hands are much larger than the yeoman's, and warmer than hers (if we accept fanon that Spock's higher body temperature would mean he feels warm to humans), so why did Kirk think it was Spock? (Even if Spock had been in the habit of giving him back rubs, shouldn't the hands have felt different?)
Kirk is not sure what to think about what's been happening to him. Spock was nowhere around during the first two incidents, and didn't touch him during the back rub, so is Kirk hallucinating all this? Then after the conclusion of the Shore Leave episode, as Kirk makes love with Ruth, he feels those touches again, that feel so much like Spock's hands. And then Spock appears, and it really is Spock, and not an android. I loved the conversation they have, as Spock tries to explain why he's done this to Kirk, without giving away anything about bonding, or T'Pring, or pon farr. Part of it is below:
"I... wanted to touch you. I wanted it to be me who touched you. Always. Even if I never, if I might not." Kirk nodded, thinking through what each of those hard won sentences meant.
"Always and never," Spock almost whispered.And then Kirk asks Spock to touch him for real, and Spock gives way to temptation just this once, despite his expressed reservations to Kirk about his Vulcan biology. I loved how the scene of Spock fondling Kirk and giving him a blow job was written. Even though Spock is physically there with Kirk, Kirk still can't tell which of the touches are real and which are imaginary, as Spock seems to have entirely too many hands! I thought this story was poignant and sad, and erotic. And so well written—I love Jat's writing style. Jat Sapphire has not written much K/S, so I am thrilled to see a new story by her, especially one that I found so enjoyable. 
- from The K/S Press #90