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It was published in the print zine Prophets in the Wilderness.
"Kirk is distressed when Spock begins avoiding him after the koon-a-kalifee."
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In the aftermath of Pon Farr, Spock realises how he feels for Kirk. This well-trodden path wouldn't have grabbed my interest if the characterisation and the visual detail had not been supplied so carefully. It was like watching the show. Before long, we are into 'The Doomsday Machine" and it is as the Constellation is drawn towards destruction that Kirk receives his own revelation of his feelings for Spock -and communicates it to Spock's mind. After this, Patricia brings the story to a nicely paced and satisfying resolution. 
This story is set immediately after “Amok Time” ends, with Kirk and Spock exiting sickbay to “mind the store”. Both Spock and Kirk soon come to realize how they feel about each other as the ship continues to Altair 6 for the inauguration ceremony, then answers a distress call from the Constellation, damaged beyond repair by the planet eater Doomsday Machine. However, neither has spoken of his feelings to the other. As time is running out for Kirk to be beamed aboard to the Enterprise from the Constellation, he despairingly thinks of what he’d hoped for with Spock and somehow his anguished thoughts reach Spock. There’s some great scenes between Kirk and Spock as Spock melds with Kirk and they relive the recent traumatic events on Vulcan and on the Constellation. The meld ends with passionate lovemaking between them, and the conclusion is lovely and tender. I always enjoy first time stories set on the Enterprise, especially when they are as well written as this one.