Portions of Our Hearts

Fanfiction
Title:	Portions of Our Hearts
Author(s):	Tere Ann Roderick
Date(s):	1984
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Genre(s):	slash
Fandom(s):	Star Trek: TOS
Relationship(s):	Kirk/Spock
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Portions of Our Hearts is a K/S story by Tere Ann Roderick.

It was published in First Time #1.

Summary

"After Deneva, Kirk must resolve his guilt over his nephewʼs and Spockʼs injuries."

Reactions and Reviews

With Spock's help, Kirk deals with his brother's death & his nephew's alienation. The characters bleed over into one another, as when the author writes about Kirk: "His inability to deal with Spock's injury hurt him far more than the deaths of his family, but he could not admit it. It made him too vulnerable...too Human." When did Kirk decide to give up his humanity? I always thought that was Spock's problem. Again, the difficulty here is one of characterization rather than the quality of the writing, which is good. Spock steps wholly out of character in a confessional sort of scene with Kirk's nephew wherein he tries to explain Kirk to Peter. The author has Spock take up her case for a Kirk who wants to eschew his humanity & emotions, explaining him to Peter in these terms: "He has been forced by his own code of honor to pretend that he can handle any situation without undue emotionalism. He has not allowed himself to be vulnerable." What code of honor is this, & what does it have to do with Kirk? I still don't know, & couldn't recognize the Vulcan-like Kirk portrayed here. This was a good idea which went awry due to the confused characterization.