Old School X Interview: Rachel Nobel/Rae Lynn
| Interviews by Fans | |
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| Title: | Old School X Interview: Rachel Nobel/Rae Lynn |
| Interviewer: | Lilydale |
| Interviewee: | Rachel Nobel/Rae Lynn (xraelynn) |
| Date(s): | May 4, 2021 |
| Medium: | online, Tumblr |
| Fandom(s): | The X-Files |
| External Links: | at lilydalexf; archive link |
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Old School X Interview: Rachel Nobel/Rae Lynn was conducted by Lilydale as part of the series Old School X Interview Series.
Some Topics Discussed
- "fandom is inextricably bound up with adolescence", Mulder is a metaphor for adolescence
- Primal Screamers, rec site
- XAngst Anonymous, mailing list
From the Interview
Does it surprise you that people are still interested in reading your X-Files fanfics and others that were posted during the original run of the show (1993-2002)?
Absolutely. I joined a Facebook group for fanfic writers where someone recognized my name and asked about some of my stories that have disappeared from the Internet, and I almost fell off my chair. On the other hand, I go back and read original-run fanfic all the time - the Wayback Machine is my best friend for all the late great fanfic archives. Like fine wines, they get better with age!
What do you think of when you think about your X-Files fandom experience? What did you take away from it?
I was fairly young during the peak of the fandom - I was only 12 when I started watching the show and discovered the fandom online. A few years ago, right around the time we learned the revival was coming, I wrote an essay I called “How ‘The X-Files’ defined my adolescence,” in which I wrote: “If you think about it, 'The X-Files’ is a lot like adolescence: You start out thinking it’s going to be a little hokey, NBD, and then you end up in its thrall, captivated and occasionally hugely let down. A lot of people behave strangely, and no one gets out unscathed. Mulder, in his own weird way, is the perfect mirror for an adolescent: He doesn’t fit in; his life careens between being utterly consequential to the fate of the known universe and being completely pointless; he’s socially awkward and can’t quite nail it down with the girl of his dreams.”
So for me, the fandom is inextricably bound up with adolescence, that feeling of vacillating between desperate loneliness and being on the verge of something enormously significant. Take romance: I was a bit of a late bloomer, and when all my friends were exploring their first relationships I was watching Mulder and Scully navigate this beautiful, complicated, soulful relationship without ever even kissing. That was deeply affecting for me as a teen.
Social media didn’t really exist during the show’s original run. How were you most involved with the X-Files online (atxc, message board, email mailing list, etc.)?
I started out on mailing lists - there was an EMXC mailing list and one that I think was called X-Angst. This was back at the dawn of the Internet when I only had 10 hours of AOL access a month, and I remember using what AOL called a “FlashSession” to log on, download all the fanfic from the mailing list and log off to read it. I vividly remember the excitement of watching all that new fanfic flood my inbox! Later on I was on atxc. During the long summer between “Gethsemane” and “Redux,” it felt like fanfic was at its peak. There was a group of about a dozen women who got together (virtually) to discuss a work in progress by Lydia Bower called “Primal Sympathy.” We called ourselves the “Primal Screamers,” and we had our own website with fanfic recommendations and other discussions (it cracked me up to locate us as an entry on Fanlore.org). I was still in high school at the time and I was the youngest member; I felt like I had been accepted into a cool underground club. I worshipped these women, who were fanfic writers themselves. They taught me everything I knew about how to be a decent, respectful, enthusiastic consumer and writer of fanfic and fandom.
What did you take away from your experience with X-Files fic or with the fandom in general?
In the '90s, I would have been embarrassed to tell anyone I read fanfic, let alone that I was writing it. Now, I look back on it and realize how talented and smart and passionate we all were. It’s something to be proud of.
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Do you ever still read X-Files fic? Fic in another fandom?
I was fairly stunned when the revival came around and I realized that people were still writing X-Files fic, and that a lot of it was so good. So yes, I do read fic on Archive of Our Own. But my heart is always with the early days of fanfic. In the revival when Mulder says “I’ve always wondered how this was going to end” - that felt to me almost like a love letter to fanfic authors who had been trying to answer that question for 25 years. Surprisingly, I’ve never had the urge to read fic in another fandom. Every time I try, it just feels like I’m cheating on Mulder and Scully.
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Do you still write fic now? Or other creative work?
As the swallows return to Capistrano, I seem to always return to writing fic at periods of transition in my life. The first time I “retired” from fanfic, I wasn’t even in college yet! If one can be nostalgic at 21 years old for something one gave up at 17, I was nostalgic for fanfic, and I picked it back up again in grad school. Then I became a teacher and a wife and a mom and years passed, and the revival seduced me back into it again. But the vast majority of fanfic I’ve written is firmly planted in the first seven seasons of the show - poor Mulder and Scully never seem to get to grow up in my stories.