Letting Go (Star Trek: TOS story by Darla Michaels)

Fanfiction
Title:	Letting Go
Author(s):	Darla Michaels
Date(s):	1987
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Genre(s):	slash
Fandom(s):	Star Trek: TOS
Relationship(s):	Kirk/Spock
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Letting Go is a Kirk/Spock story by Darla Michaels.

It was published in the print zine First Time #13.

Summary

"Spock’s mother dies and Kirk and McCoy go with Spock to Vulcan for the funeral."

Reactions and Reviews

1998

Spock’s mother dies and Kirk and McCoy go with Spock to Vulcan for the funeral. Then Sarek dies with her because they were bonded.

They go to the family’s beautiful mansion — I just adored its portrayal in this story—white walls, light gold carpet, plants, lots of tasteful marble and gold, and luxurious big bathrooms. Sounds like my kind of house.

McCoy and Kirk are worried because Spock won’t show emotion at all.

An excellent scene when Kirk comes to Spock’s room and they play chess and drink liquor. In a wonderful moment, Spock asks Kirk, “Captain...Jim, how does one deal with grief?” Kirk says in different ways, one way is “the bottle”.

Later, Spock gets drunk (funny how so many of us like that!) and tells Kirk, “I am endeav...ende...trying to follow your suggest’n, sir,” Spock slurred. “You recc’mended a bottle as an aid in dealing with grief. I am now on my second.”

Kirk drinks with him and they end up doing some heavy petting. The next morning, Kirk realizes he loves Spock and apologizes for having taken advantage of him. Spock tells Kirk: “I said, you did not have an unwilling partner last night. I have wanted to touch like that for a very long time. That is why I thought I had instigated the liaison.”

Kirk never thought he’d ever desire a man until Spock. And I loved what he says: “I mean that we were both too drunk to know much of anything last night. I think in the interest of science, of course, that we should try it again while we’re both cold sober.”

Well, they do and it’s a nice sexy scene.

Also, nicely framed by Kirk’s remembrances and then the present time when he and Spock leave together.