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It was published in the print zine T'hy'la #3.
"Once again grounded to the Admiralty, Kirk fights dissatisfaction at his bondmateʼs six months absence and the fear of growing old before Spock."
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This is a version of a Kirk who is basically unhappy with his life. Given a promotion and a desk job, he goes through the motion while longing to be back in space. His only happiness is his bond with Spock who is absent much of the time. This story evoked really strong feelings. I could empathize completely with Kirk who knew, but couldn't quite admit to himself or his bondmate, that he had made some wrong choices in his life. Kirk watches a new, young captain preparing to take her place among the stars and we know that he would give anything to be there — heading for new adventures, new challenges. 
This could have been a very poignant and heart- wrenching story. Kirk is grappling with encroaching age and the fact he has a bond with Spock which will not carry them together into death. Spock returns from an extended trip and this should have opened the way for a beautiful coming to terms. I felt robbed of the ending which would have made them realize they need the death bond as much as they need each other in life. But it didn’t come. The story felt rushed, with nothing at all resolved. There were lovely moments that could have grown to such a great crescendo. I’d like it if Ms. Resch had used her considerable talents to a more satisfying conclusion. Her skill was such that she made me care—but left me deprived.