Distrust

Fanfiction
Title:	Distrust
Author(s):	Rosemarie Heaton
Date(s):	1997
Length:
Genre(s):	slash
Fandom(s):	Star Trek: TOS
Relationship(s):	Kirk/Spock
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Distrust is a Kirk/Spock story by Rosemarie Heaton.

It was published in the print zine T'hy'la #18 .

Summary

"Lt Kirk meets and falls in love with Spock but leaves in anger when, back from a mission, he learns how Spock has been supporting himself."

Reactions and Reviews

1997

Kirk is a lieutenant with Border Patrol and he meets Spock in the Academy library is this A/U story. The theme of lies, truth and trust are very nicely used and the author does a good job of coming full circle with her theme.

Kirk and Spock hit it off and agree to meet for dinner. I loved the cute Spock-ism where he misunderstands when Kirk asks him if he’d care to join him for lunch and Spock wonders “which parts the Terran wished to join”.

Anyway, they go to Spock’s apartment by the ocean and they hold hands in the taxi—nice—and embrace at the door—very nice—and then evidently make love, which would have been nice if we could have seen it.

Actually, we should have seen it, not so much because sex scenes are nice to see, (which they are) but because it sets up their entire relationship for the rest of the story.

Kirk and a group of his buddies at Border Patrol go out on the town and go to a nightclub where Spock was a performer of some kind. We don’t know what kind, but Kirk gets upset and decides Spock is really only good for sex.

The next morning, Kirk goes back to Spock’s apartment and now thinks of him as a “whore”. Kirk doesn’t say anything, but Spock senses something is wrong. Days go by and Spock never asks and Kirk never says. This non-communication is done well and when they go out to a bar, Kirk keeps thinking about Spock’s “deception”.

Finally he asks: “Why didn’t you tell me you’re a whore, Spock? Ashamed?” Spock is totally confused over Kirk’s anger and finally they part ways.

Kirk has to leave suddenly the next morning and that sets up a long period of time when they don’t see each other. Spock and Pike become lovers. I rather liked this pairing. In so many stories, Pike is usually a terrible asshole, but here he’s a very nice man to whom Spock could believably be attracted. Pike gives command of the Enterprise to Kirk with Spock as science officer and Gary Mitchell as first officer.

However, great leaps of time occurred, some even in the same paragraph which caused problems in an otherwise fine story. Some parts became very hard to follow especially when there’d be just one or two lines concerning major, complex events such as when Gary Mitchell dies and Spock is promoted to first officer. Another was the entire incident on Talos with Spock and Pike all in about a half page.

Also, often the setting of scenes was shown too late. A number of times, I didn’t know where it was in time or place until well into the scene. And sometimes they’d talk to people we didn’t know were there.

But I did really enjoy the situation between Kirk and Spock. They had to work together, but the whole time they didn’t get along. Everyone around them acknowledges the problem but themselves. This was nicely done. I especially liked the scene where they deny to everyone that they’re lovers.

Later, Spock and Uhura go on shore leave together and end up making love which you’d miss if you didn’t read the one part of the sentence that said: “they made love”. I thought their liaison was a good idea and it was set up well, so I would have liked very much to have seen it. At least seen a little bit.

Another good scene was when Kirk becomes mad and jealous and confronts Spock in public. So they sit down in the briefing room (which I thought was not exactly a conducive place) with McCoy to discuss their feelings. Spock reveals that he left the Academy to be with Kirk.

Then just when we think that they just can’t be together, finally they are. This was fine except that the story spanned twelve years which caused some of the difficulties I described above. I think the story would have benefited if the time frame had been shorter, but all in all, there was a lot to like.