Beside Myself III

K/S Fanfiction
Title:	Beside Myself III
Author(s):	Robin Hood
Date(s):	1992
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Genre:	slash
Fandom:	Star Trek: The Original Series
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Beside Myself III is a Kirk/Spock story by Robin Hood.

It was published in the print zine Beside Myself #3.

Summary

"Another transporter split, but this time it's Spock who's torn in two: a Vulcan and a Human. And it is the Vulcan that Kirk is most drawn to."

Reactions and Reviews

Another split by the transporter, but this time it's Spock who's torn into two, a Vulcan and a Human. There are one or two other stories with this plot, but what makes this one different is the Spock characterizations. Usually the Vulcan Spock is totally cold and unreachable, while the Human Spock is warm and outgoing, and it is to this one that Kirk relates to. Not so in this story.

Here, the Vulcan is displaced, seems remote, but its only because the Human portion of him is gone, which was apparently the half that Spock used to reach out to Kirk and others. His pain at being so locked up in himself is very real, and very distressing to Kirk. He's drawn to the Vulcan more than the Human. Which is good, anyway, because the Human Spock is something of an arrogant bastard. Not that it's his fault; it's because he has no control over what he feels, and can't deal with his totally Human drives and emotions. He is just as lost as the Vulcan, perhaps more so, because he really does not seem at all like Spock.

Also, Spock's memories were split as well, so neither really remembers Spock's relationship with Kirk. And poor Kirk cant help feeling torn between them. Eventually Spock is put back together and remembers everything. Kirkconfronts him about the way both his halves seemed to fed about him, and the truth is out.

The sex is good, the ending is happy, and all together a good read.

The story "Beside Myself III" also has a subtitle which I don't understand. It is "Devil Take the Hand Most." I feel stupid that I don't know what it means, but I don't. Now that I've read the story I am amazed that someone has not written this plot before. Maybe they have but I don't remember reading it. (My memory does suck to high heaven.) In this story a transporter malfunction separates Spock into two people: a total Vulcan Spock and a total human Spock. The story is really interesting, and it is my favorite story of the entire zine.

This, despite poor proofing, was worth the rest of the zine. A transporter accident splits Spock into his human and Vulcan halves, and Kirk discovers it's the Vulcan side he likes better, though it's the human side who has a crush on him. A fun idea, well executed.