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It was published in the zine The Price and The Prize.
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This is a great Mirror story, taking place after the Janice Lester incident (and after Kirk has killed Lester and Dr. Coleman). I enjoy the beginning where we don't know exactly what happened yet, but Spock is awaiting some form of punishment by Kirk, maybe even death, for something he's done, or maybe because he knows too much. We also learn here that after his encounter with the kinder, gentler Kirk of the other universe, Spock is definitely entertaining thoughts of a relationship with his own captain.
Well, it turns out that Spock had raped Kirk in Janice Lester's body! The confrontation they have about this is wonderful. Kirk, and we, learn now that Spock knew it was Kirk in Lester's body. Kirk can't believe this—he thinks that if Spock indeed knew it was him, he would also have known he would be killed for doing what he did.
But Spock says, you liked it. And indeed he did. So there's a wonderful physical fight scene, ending with Spock pinning Kirk down on the bed. I love this: Kirk says, I'll kill you. Spock says, then I'll give you more reason...and proceeds to ravish him.
I thought it all too sudden that Kirk began talking honestly and softly, saying, Why didn't you ask? I might have said yes. But of course it wasn't really a sudden change of heart...as Kirk pulls out his phaser as he's taking off his clothes.
This was very cool: Kirk stuns Spock so that he's weak and can hardly move, so that Kirk can have the power. But Kirk ends up the one defeated, because while he's having his way with Spock (with no gentleness) he realizes Spock isn't fighting him, thinks he probably even likes it. Whereas Kirk wants Spock to hate it; he wants to hurt Spock back for what he did. This part was odd but interesting: he shaves Spock's beard off with his knife. (Whether he admits it or not, he likes Spock's mouth, likes it better unhidden.)
Spock is sad it has to be like this. He will not fight Kirk (this is after the stun has worn off). He says, this is your revenge, take it. And they end up talking honestly. Maybe just with each other, in this savage universe, they can try another way. It's risky, though, being tender and vulnerable, but they kiss tenderly...oh it's beautiful.
And then I always like the scenario of Kirk having to come around from his not being ready to be fucked by Spock, though he has no problem with fucking Spock. It makes sense, as in this story, that this could come from his experiences of being used on Tarsus, besides his natural macho inclinations.
So where there had been trust building between them as comrades-in-arms, now there is a new kind of trust.I haven't even said anything about the writing itself, but it was perfect, and the story put together without flaw. 
- from The K/S Press #28