This Dialogue of One

Fanfiction
Title:	This Dialogue of One
Author(s):	Judith Gran
Date(s):	1983
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Genre(s):	slash
Fandom(s):	Star Trek: TOS
Relationship(s):	Kirk/Spock
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This Dialogue of One is a Kirk/Spock story by Judith Gran.

It was published in the print zine Matter/Antimatter #3/4.

"The Body's Treason" is part one and This Dialogue of One is part two. These stories postulate that Spock did not go straight to Gol after leaving Kirk and the Enterprise: the first is from Kirk's point of view, the second from Spock's.

Summary

"Spockʼs marriage fails when it turns out that he has a bond to Kirk but unwilling to have his memories of Kirk exocised in order to remove it, he goes to Gol."

Reactions and Reviews

1984

Spock has been through his second pon farr but in his mind, during the madness, rest only images of Jim. Several problems then exist: a healer tells him that what he has with Kirk is a "natural bonding" and that thus he is not driven to his wife in pon farr - she must be the initiator, something that Spock finds abhorrent; the anti-pon-farr drug cannot be used yet and the only way left to abort pon farr is to achieve Kolinahr, meaning that Spock can neither have his cake, nor eat it. Pon farr may be an old chestnut but these two stories deal with it interestingly and without the gory details with which we are all so familiar.

2001

Aha! A continuation of "The Body's Treason", for which I had wished.

Pon farr has been accomplished and TVal, Spock's wife, has conceived. However, she wishes no more of the revelations made clear to her in their fevered melds: visions of passion and devotion to a certain human male.

Spock's trip to the healer at the insistence of his unforgiving wife is a very good scene. He's told there are ways to rid him of all memories of Kirk, and this is the only way to free himself of the visions because he and Kirk are "naturally bonded", something of a phenomenon on Vulcan. What's great about this is Spock's clear refusal to lose the only thing remaining of his love-his memories. What's not so great is his solution. When T'Val miscarries, it seems a given he will go flying back to Kirk. Not so. It is at this point he turns to Gol. Another chapter, please!