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It was published in the print zine Counterpoint #3.
"Kirk lives with the pain of Spock's death until his meeting with Sarek gives him hope."
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This is one of the most wonderful short-short stories I've read in a long time. I've never been taken on a more charming journey in less than ten pages. I usually have trouble with any story that takes place over many months of chronological time, but the author never lost focus of her point and the passage of time was written in a way that made it feel natural. The birthday gift was not only an original idea for a K/S story, but an original idea period. This was a good feeling piece from every angle, and I have rarely been more enchanted. I got a kick out of the image of McCoy "crossing off the days until Spock's return." 
Haven’t you looked at pictures of Kirk mourning Spock’s death and tried to imagine the depth of his despair? When we have so thoroughly explored the glorious highs of their love, it’s almost impossible to relate to that indescribable loss. Yet, in Sweet Survivor, Robin Hood makes a formidable showing in capturing these feelings as she follows Kirk down a hallway and into his empty future.
For instance: “From the moment of Spock’s death...the cavern had opened within his own chest, and his soul had fallen in....”
Kirk thinks about how he goes numbly through daily tasks. And he remembers. He considers that he should have been punished and then realizes, “But that’s exactly where he was now: Hell.”This is a brief but very intense exploration of loss, done with a terrible realism.