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|Author(s):||M. Fae Glasgow|
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The story was published in Bene Dictum #2 and is online.
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This is what AU should be but so often isn't--take canon, change it just a little, and follow the consequences of that change. Here the consequence is that an injured man comes around from a coma, and finds that he remembers nothing, not even his name--Kerr Avon. He has to slowly rebuild his life in the face of post-traumatic amnesia, discovering who he used to be from the way his shipmates react to him. It's an emotionally intense tale, looking at Avon's relationship with his crewmates, but also using his exploration of his world to examine the evil that is the Federation, and the moral dilemma that Blake faces in fighting it. M Fae Glasgow's skilful control of language paints a picture of a man who is not quite who he used to be, thanks to selective memory loss--and who doesn't regret it. It was published in Bene Dictum 2, available on Oblique Publications' website. As with Oblique's other zines, it's in PDF format, so you'll need Acrobat Reader or another PDF viewer to read it. The rest of the zine is well worth reading--my other favourite is one of the Pros stories, "The High Road." 
Stunningly sad AU. Well, we've all seen stories where Blake's memory problems are the main cause of angst, but what if Avon and Blake were still together, and still sort-of lovers, after Star One, but Avon had got hit on the head (as seems to happen so frequently to him) and has forgotten who these strange people are and even how to act like a complete bastard. A wonderfully tragicomic (but ultimately sad) view of a less-defensive Avon discovering how he must have behaved from the words (and silences) of other people. Even the typo (Bodie's name instead of Blake's in the sex scene) jars but doesn't put me off this excellent story.