Changes (Star Trek: TOS story)
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From the publisher: "End of the five year mission, and Kirk, Spock and McCoy must make decisions about their futures."
"'Bones, we have to talk." "We will, we will. Atlanta isn't exactly Andromeda." Well, that was true. Kirk gripped his hand. "Take care, Bones, and let me hear from you soon." McCoy looked at him sadly, shaking his head. Wish there was something I could do without hurting either of you. I can't even say I hope you aren't making a mistake, because I know you are.'"
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While this begins with Kirk in bed with Lori Ciani, his thoughts turn quickly to Spock as he contemplates a visit home. Obviously whatever misunderstanding sent Spock to Gol has not yet occurred, because Kirk is thinking Lori may not want to accompany him home and as quickly as the thought forms, he decides he prefers she not go. He thinks “ For so long now, I’ve wanted to show Spock my home, let him meet mother. This will be my time with Spock.” This is wonderful affirmation of what Spock means to him...that he is with a new love who has already agreed to a long-term relationship and yet the person he most wants to spend time with is Spock. These are the kinds of not-so-subtle messages that are inherent in Suzan’s writings.
Kirk also believes at this point he will be able to maneuver high command into giving Spock the Enterprise, since Kirk has accepted an assignment to HQ. Again, the trust and faith he has in Spock is clear. No one else is good enough to care for his silver lady.
There are many fine moments in this story, one where Kirk comes to Spock’s quarters on the ship and Spock, in turmoil over his future, doesn’t respond to Kirk’s calls. Spock is torn – realizing just how much Kirk has come to mean to him. He knows he would move Heaven and earth for Kirk and acknowledges that revelation with horror. What a difficult scene to witness. And it is but the beginning of changes that will cause both men countless months of grief and loneliness.
The stark panic that courses through Kirk when he learns of Spock’s decision speaks volumes and his reaction is proof enough for me of the love he holds for a particular Vulcan. His life spins into a morass of grief, disbelief and pain. Consider this passage and tell me that James T. Kirk does not love Spock: “In the end he went to his rooms, locked the door and stood lost in the middle of the room. ‘It’s over...’.”One of the strongest scenes in the entire story involves Spock, kneeling on the scorching sands of Vulcan, attempting to cast out the memory of Jim Kirk. It is so clearly written you can smell the heat rolling off the desert, can feel the prickling of the sand blowing against your skin. Most importantly, you can sense Spock’s pain as if it were your own. A very stirring and unforgettable image. 
- from The K/S Press #124