Alone (Star Trek: TOS story by Gena Moretti)
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It was published in the print zine KaleidoScope #5.
"Spockʼs emotional memories of his life on the Enterprise and his love affair with Kirk are destroyed during the fal tor pan and multiple melds are suggested with those he was close to in order to retrieve them."
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This is a story about the events after Spock’s death and rebirth. Spock didn’t get all his memories back and no emotions at all. The healers had real problems, because “...it has been many generations since a Katra was replaced.” “For all practical purposes, it must be admitted that what was done to Spock was ... guesswork.” Sarek is embarrassed (endearingly!) and helpless, Kirk is desperate and impatient, and McCoy, though worried about Kirk and Spock, has his own problems: he can’t stand this terrible loneliness after the loss of Spock’s katra. The story is very interesting written: partly narration in the third person and partly in the first person POV, McCoy. I like this very much, it puts McCoy in the center of things. His loneliness, his feelings for his friends, his gruff but charming nature are so vividly shown. A very nice idea are the mind melds to restore Spock’s memories and emotions. The key figure is again McCoy. A wonderful ending: a family link for McCoy, so the three belong together for all time. 
I like stories going in depth into McCoy's experience of sharing Spock's katra.
There were some problems, such as overtelling us what the characters were feeling, and sometimes dialogue that sounded too obvious to be truly what they would say (more like what the author needed to have said). Also, I believe words shouldn't be put in quotation marks in dialogue.
After the refusion, McCoy is troubled, restless, confused. I liked getting the story directly from him in the form of his sitting at the computer in the Klingon ship and recording
what he remembers from the beginning; and after that, all the oddities that happen, things he wouldn't have thought of himself-like all of a sudden being a computer expert, being able to "meld" with Kirk to help him sleep, etc.
And getting an erection thinking about Kirk--I love it. A charming, warm scene when McCoy tells Kirk this.
Then, a slightly revised version of the events of ST3/4. All three suffer from this misplaced consciousness in one way or another. The solution to this was novel. And Spock's melds with the various senior officers were done appropriately to each character; particularly with McCoy, it was touching and beautiful.But we weren't then shown what could have been a more moving climax, the meld between Spock and Kirk that put everything back right. But I love the resolution for McCoy...and everyone's happy. 
- from The K/S Press #5
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