A Sudden Waking

Fanfiction
Title:	A Sudden Waking
Author(s):	Dana Austin Marsh
Date(s):	1989?
Length:
Genre(s):	slash
Fandom(s):	Star Trek: TOS
Relationship(s):	Kirk/Spock
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A Sudden Waking is a K/S story by Dana Austin Marsh.

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It was published in the print zine As I Do Thee #10.

Summary

"Kirk is confronted by Spock's bisexuality when he runs into Spock and his payed companion-a Kirk lookalike, causing Kirk to withdraw from Spock until he can come to terms with his own feelings."

Reactions and Reviews

1989

I enjoyed this, but didn't like the premise it rests on: that Spock is a frequenter of prostitutes. Given that, the story was well done. Kirk's temperamental reaction to learning about Spock-—he comes close to blowing his whole life—is just the way he might act, if scared enough. I'll say right off - I don't liked reading descriptions of either Kirk or Spock in a sexual encounter with someone else in a K/S story. Referring to those encounters is a different matter. In this story I believe Kirk's reaction to finding out about Spock was very possible. His "taking it out" on the crew and Spock himself by abusing his authority is something most people - Kirk included - would do. I did not like Spock being so meek about it! McCoy's talk to Kirk was very well done and in-character. I didn't really think that intercourse was necessary to "prove" to Kirk that he was capable of having a lover relationship with Spock - his willingness to even try indicated that!

1996

Kirk wants to go with Spock on shore leave, but Spock refuses, and goes instead to a specialized bordello where the patrons can look at a candidate menu on a view screen. He chooses one named Jim—a young blond guy with blue eyes—close to what he really wants, of course.

Kirk and McCoy go to the same bordello. While Spock waits in the lobby for his selection to appear. Kirk recognizes him Just in time to see who that selection is.

Spock becomes withdrawn which makes Kirk agitated and hostile to his crew. This is all believable except for later when Kjrk sees a planet that he wants to beam down to. Spock points up to him that they don't know enough about it and Kirk gets "red-faced with suppressed rage". I don't know. I understand that Kirk is upset, but would he let his emotions rule him to the point of endangering his crew and the Enterprise? Naahh.

McCoy has a talk with Kirk and says:" "You taught him to feel, Jim. At least you taught him to recognize and acknowledge his feelings. You are the first person to befriend him. Not the Vulcan pari or the human part but all of him—everything that makes him Spock.'" Realty nice.

Okay, and I have this peccadillo about McCoy telling either one that one of them is in love with the other. It just bothers me because I always wonder why it's necessary for McCoy to have to tell them something they ought to know themselves.

Okay, and I have this peccadillo about McCoy telling either one that one of them is in love with the other. It just bothers me because I always wonder why it's necessary for McCoy to have to tell them something they ought to know themselves.

Kirk comes to his senses (obviously with a little help from McCoy whp had to tell him) and confronts Spock. This is a very nice scene, but do you believe that Kirk, as he himself states, has never, ever, not even had the idea of being intimate with another man, let alone ever experimented as a boy? A virginal Kirk? He says:" "You're going to have to help me, Spock. I don't know how exactly to go about making love to another man.'" Well, let's see...you put this in here and...

This aside, the conversation between them is wonderful. Kirk says all kinds of neat things like he's never committed himself to one person and he doesn't want to lose their friendship. But then, groan! Kirk quotes McCoy!

But also wonderful is Spock's declaration that he has loved Kirk from the moment he met him. I always love that.