a leaf falls on loneliness

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Title: a leaf falls on loneliness
Author(s): iimpossible_things
Date(s): March 29, 2020
Length: 11,163 words
Genre(s): Slash, Hurt/Comfort
Fandom(s): 9-1-1
Relationship(s): Buck/Eddie
External Links: AO3
"Buck in a suit leaning his head into hand looking discouraged, surrounded by a black broader. Text reads 'a leaf falls on loneliness, written by iimpossible_things, read by blackglass'"
Cover art for the podfic by MistMarauder (2023)

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a leaf falls on loneliness is a 9-1-1 fic by iimpossible_things, focused on the pairing of Buck/Eddie. It is highly recced within the fandom.

Summary

Buck doesn’t think that if he were to say, “I’m in a bad place”, that anyone would turn him away. Really, he doesn’t. The 118 has too many good, kind people for that.

But every time he wants to open his mouth, to say something, to reach out to Eddie or Bobby or Hen or Chim, he hears Eddie yelling, “you’re exhausting.”

—you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting, you’re exhausting—

So each day he does his job and he laughs and he jokes and he pretends he’s the care-free goofball he’s always been. And each day he packs away his bruises and his worries, takes them home to his empty loft with its quiet rooms, and licks his wounds in silence.

Reactions and Reviews

My loves, this is one of the best buck and eddie fics I’ve ever read and you all need to read it right now.[1]

This is a wonderful story that addresses a lot of Buck’s trauma. So if that is your jam, this one is definitely for you. Fair warning, I cry every time I re-read it.[2]

This is one of the very few post-lawsuit fics that hit just right. Everyone is in character. Everyone is treated fairly, and we get an insight into people's heads. It's wonderful, and nuanced and introduced an OC, Cole, that reminded me of Red, and though he wasn't a big part of the fic, I feel like he was an amazing addition to Buck's journey here. Buddie's getting together is adorable, and it features our boys being dorks and I just LOVE it.[3]

Buck deals with the aftermath of the tsunami and the lawsuit and struggles to accept that he’s not a burden. It’s a very very good fic ![4]

first ever 911 fic i ever bookmarked!! lots of angst, gorgeous writing, happy ending. it’s lovely. [5]

Y’all. Just - do yourself a favor and read this. A masterpiece!! Just *chefs kiss*[6]

I first got into 9-1-1 fanfic because I didn't like how the ladder truck/lawsuit storyline was resolved in the show. Unfortunately, I found that it was difficult to find fic that explored it in a nuanced way - this fic is the exception and it's probably the best exploration of that era that I've ever read.[7]

Oh you meant ‘bad’ as in 'fucking beautiful and heartbreaking’ gotcha!

a leaf falls on loneliness by iimpossible_things

Dude, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to reread that one. Call me weak but oh my god it was just too fucking angsty. I guess I was in a bad spot mentally when I read it for the first time, too, so that only made it worse XD I think I may have even read it while I was still binging through season 3, the lawsuit arc still so fresh, and yeah that was a touch arc for me, lmao. Damn. It’s such a good fic.[8]

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