When I'm Calling You

Zine
Title:	When I'm Calling You
Publisher:	Ann O'Neill
Editor(s):
Date(s):	1995-1996
Series?:
Medium:	print, fanzine
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Genre:
Fandom:	due South
Language:	English
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cover of issue #1

When I'm Calling You is a slash due South anthology.

The focus is on the Ray Vecchio/Fraser relationship. Ann called them "thrash" zines:

A thrash zine encompasses hurt/comfort stories with a slash element! Angst and sex are guaranteed in ample measure!

From a 1995 Notice

DUE SOUTH: Looking for other British fans of Due South to discuss this wonderful show. I am so taken with it that I am in the process of writing fiction for it and now have a zine available. Please write if you want to chat about the show or check the ad pages if you want to order the zine.

Reactions and Reviews

Cheap digest sized zines. Stories vary in quality, some very good. Note, editing/proofreading standards poor. Recommended.

Issue 1

When I'm Calling You 1 was published in 1995 and contains 80 pages.

"Issue 1 is an A5 booklet with a colour card cover featuring Inuit artwork in gold foil block. The interior is photocopied and totals 80 pages (for those of you who are interested in this sort of thing (!) the word count for the entire zine is 119,847)."

• The Windhover, poem by Gerald Manley Hopkins (3)
• Look Into the Abyss by Isabelle Wood ("An undercover operation, using Fraser as 'bait" to trap a serial killer goes desperately wrong. Diefenbaker find Fraser in time to save his life?") (5)
• The Biker's Bar by Teresa Hehir ("A wonderful piece of 'nonsense' about four men and a bar bill!") (64)
• Cold by Sarah Lock ("A dark look at grief and desperate wanting.") (67)

Issue 2

When I'm Calling You 2 was published in 1995 and contains 80 pages.

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flyer for issue #2

• A Man Without a Shadow by Gloria Lancaster ("How far will, or must, a man go to prove himself, to himself or the rest of the world?") (4)
• Falling Rain by Isabelle Wood ("How far must a man go, for the love of another man...") (49)
• Magical Moments by Gloria Lancaster (79)

Issue 3

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flyer for issue #3

When I'm Calling You 3 was published in April 1996 and is 80 pages long.

• Burnt Bridges by Quill (""Fraser, Fraser... FRASER!" he screamed but the figure didn't move. Fraser,"he whispered as the gun in his hand dragged downwards as if it weighed a ton. His eyes were seeing but his mind wouldn't believe.") (2)
• Ray's Secret by Isabelle Wood (""What the hell do you want?" He allowed no time for an answer, instead went on with, "I can't believe you're doing this - calling me, calling me after what you've done! I trusted you, and you..." He couldn't say it, he couldn't articulate a hurt so great that it was destroying him, even' single minute of the day. "What about Diefenbaker? I don't suppose you spared him a single thought, did you? And what about me, my family, my home? Was she worth it? Was she? You son of a bitch...") (3)
• Ray's Threat by Quill ("Don't make me do something I'll regret, Ray," he said, trying to stay calm.") (78)

Issue 4

flyer for issues #4-6, click to read story summaries

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When I'm Calling You 4 was published in 1996 and is 76 pages long.

"Issue 4 is an A5 booklet with a colour card cover featuring a wolf rendered in silver foil block. The interior is photocopied and totals 76 pages."

• Juliet's Ghost by Gena Fisher (""Who almost killed you, huh? It's me Benny! Me! I've fucked up my whole life. I'm a worthless idiot who gets people killed just by being close to 'em."") (2)
• Anniversary by Quill (pp. 19-28)
• Holding On by Catherine (""I think you're a big man with your boys here to protect you. Remember what happened without them?" Dark rage filled the other man'sface. Suddenly, he struck out,the blow smashing into the side of Ray's face.") (29)
• Light a Candle Along the Way by Gena Fisher (53)
• Friday Night by Quill ("Fraser halted, one leg out of the car as Ray said the magic words. In that one sentence Ray was asking if they could make love before they had to leave.")
• Due South 'Toons by Nola Frame Gray

Issue 5

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When I'm Calling You 5 was published in 1996 and is 76 pages long. The price was 5UK Pounds/10US Dollars inclusive of postage and packing. (Same price world-wide)

• The Truth by Quill (3)
• Canada Day by Laurie Taylor (6)
• The Red Mountie Test (24)
• Songs for Benny and Due South Album, music selected by Gloria Lancaster
• Question This Chance by Sarah Locke
• The Night Is My Companion by Gena Fisher (26)
• Panic by Jerry R. Browne

Issue 6

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When I'm Calling You 6 was published in December 1996 and is 69 pages long.

• Ray in Wonderland by Gena Fisher (3)
• Wipe Away the Tears by Isabelle Wood ("Fraser did not hear their platitudes, did not see or recognise their acts of kindness, in fact he was oblivious to them all. Even the usually unforgiving iron lady, Inspector Thatcher softened her manner.") (9)
• Ray's Songs by Ann Johnson (28)
• Sweet Nectar by Annick Walker ("He wished he was back home, back in the Northern Territories, where he could lose himself in the snow and walk for miles. Anything to obliterate the ache in his heart. He knew he should be pleased for Ray. After everything that had happened to Ray lately he deserved some happiness.") (33)
• It's the Not Knowing that Hurts by Gena Fisher ("His partner lay in the hospital, his body well on the way to healing. But what of their friendship? Would it mend? Could the pieces which had been ripped apart by his actions knit back and be as strong as they had once been?") (59)
• cartoons by Jane Mailander and Nola Frame-Gray